My Professor Is My Alpha Mate (Lila) novel Chapter 186

Lila’s POV

Felicity’s apology took me off guard. I was already crying because of what I just found out about Enzo’s mother, but then the apology pushed me over the edge It seemed sincere, though I didn’t fully trust her. I wondered what made her decide to apologize.

I wonder what Enzo had said to her.

But as soon as she left the room and it was only the three of us again, the thought was quickly wiped from my mind and all I could think about was the fact that Enzo had lied to me. He kept the fact that his own mother was a Volana wolf.

Did that mean Enzo also had Volana blood?

He looked at me like he was struggling against his own thoughts, and I imagine I probably looked at him the same.

“How could you not tell me your mother was a Volana?” I asked in a broken whisper.

The coloring of his face had left his features and he glanced downward, unable to meet my eyes.

“I wanted to…” he finally said after a short pause. “But I couldn’t.”

“I don’t understand,” I said. Tears filled my eyes once again and I was unable to look away from him. “Why?”

“Don’t be angry with him, sweetheart,” Diana said, reaching for my arm. I felt her love and strength through her touch. It was the same feeling I got whenever I was embraced by my own mother. “I asked him to keep my identity a secret.”

I kept my eyes locked on Enzo who finally focused his eyes on mine.

“Did you not trust me?” I asked him, ashamed by how my words trembled.

“It’s not that I didn’t trust you, Lila…” he breathed. “I wanted to protect you. That’s all I ever wanted.”

“You made me believe you hated me,” I said, unable to contain my emotions. “I thought you hated me because I was a Volana, Enzo.”

“It was better that way,” he said grimly, his face darkening slightly as if a memory was surfacing in his mind.

“Better?” I scoffed. “I thought my mate hated me. How is that better?”

“You saw what they did to my mother. If they found out that you are my mate, they would have done a lot worse to you. It doesn’t matter who your parents are, they will find a way to take you. I wasn’t going to let that happen…”

My heart ached in my chest. The entire time I thought Enzo hated me and wanted nothing to do with me, it was actually the opposite. He was doing this because he loved me and wanted to protect me.

I felt so stupid.

Tears welled in my eyes, and I had to look away from him before they spilled across my features.

“Let me explain…” Diana said softly. “Enzo had only ever wanted this world to be restored after his father died. He wanted to make it safe for Volanas all over the world so I could safely return to the pack with the others…”

“Others?” I asked, narrowing my eyes at her. “Like other Volanas?”

She nodded her head once.

“My hidden village…” she started to say, but then realization struck me as I stole a glance from Enzo.

“The hidden rogue village is filled with Volana wolves?”

He met my eyes, and he didn’t have to say anything to answer that question.

“We fled a long time ago,” Diana explained. “Your mother wasn’t the first one that Blaise targeted. I was.”

My heart fell into my stomach as I looked back into Diana’s swollen and tear-filled eyes.