Sure enough, a childish voice came from the other end of the computer, "Uncle Fu, are you on the phone with mom?"
My heart jerked, how long had it been since I was hearing Clariana's voice, hugging her, or talking to her.
With a sour nose, I couldn't hold back some tears.
Dennis on the other end of the phone handed the phone to Clariana, and Clariana's soft and tender voice came through, "Mom, are you mom? This is Clariana."
I was a little sore in my heart, pulling my nerves for a while, I couldn't say a word, my heart was blocked with gas, it was hard to breathe.
When I didn't hear my voice, Clariana was a little anxious and said, "Mom, can you hear Clariana?"
My eyes unconsciously tears slipped down, extra pain, shallow draw a breath and said, "Clariana, I'm here, mom ...... can hear!"
The tears were even more rampant as I spoke.
The Clariana on the other end of the phone was very happy to hear my reply, and for a while, like an idle chatterbox, "Mom, have you eaten? When are you coming home? Uncle Fu and I have been waiting for you for a long time. I whispered to you, I planted a lot of sweet potatoes in the yard, Grandma said, when the sweet potatoes grow small sweet potatoes, you can come back, now they are sprouting, mom, you are not coming back soon?"
I choked up and couldn't breathe for a while, my tears were like beads without strings, they kept falling, nodding my head, "Well, mommy will be back soon, when mommy finishes her work here, mommy will go back to see Clariana, Clariana must eat well, go to school well, and must listen to Uncle Fu, okay?"
"Mm-hmm!" I can imagine Clariana nodding her little head, "Mom, I'm very good, I can recite a lot of ancient poems, I can write, I can also do arithmetic, yes, Uncle Fu let me start learning piano, I can now play "Little Star", when you come back, I will play it for you, I can also draw, Mom, I drew you a very Mom, I drew you a very beautiful portrait, when you come back, I will give it to you, Mom, you come back quickly, I will have a birthday soon, Uncle Alex said that when I have a birthday, he will go to HL Area to pick up Mo Bai and Uncle Zhang, then it will be very lively, so, Mom, you have to come back quickly!"
I nodded my head and held back my tears, "Okay, mommy will definitely rush back on Clariana's birthday and spend it with Clariana."
Dennis seemed to be talking to Clariana, "Clariana, well, let uncle and mommy talk for a while, okay?"
Clariana, somewhat reluctantly, said into the phone, "Mom, can I ask you for one thing?"
I nodded, my whole body shaking and holding back tears, "Okay, does Clariana want anything for her birthday?"
"No, mom, can I talk to you on the phone every day until you get back? I want to hear my mommy's voice, so does grandma and grandpa, and last time grandma was crying, she misses mommy as much as I do!"
The child's voice is tender, words are simple, I nodded in response, hiding a heart full of guilt.
I left because I knew I was incapable of giving Clariana the best and highest quality of life, and that she would be better off with Dennis than with me, but I neglected to mention that she was still a child, and subconsciously, she only had me as a family member, and my leaving was not just fearful, but frightening to her.
Dennis took the phone, probably because he knew I was crying, and his voice was low and introspective, "She's fine here, she knows what she's doing, and Alex and her aunts are coming to take her."
I nodded, my voice a little choked up, "Dennis, thank you!"
He laughed helplessly on the other end, "You and I are already husband and wife, and Clariana is my daughter, so saying thank you is too much!"
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