When she realized that she and Jay were drifting further apart, maybe even to the extent where things might never go back to the way they used to be, Angeline could feel her heart clenching in pain.
"I'd like to have a glass of water," she said to the nurse.
The nurse poured her a glass of water. She took the glass and drank the water in a gulp.
The warm water did not seem to be able to warm her cold heart.
She realized that the pain and struggle she had gone through back then was nothing compared to the great sorrow and despair she was feeling at the moment.
She lay on the bed while staring at the ceiling.
She recalled how she had placed Jay in the center of her life all her life and how he was the reason that kept her alive. Now, however, their relationship seemed to be drawing to an end.
Angeline did not even realize that she was getting more and more depressed. She gave free rein to her emotions as they shrouded her entire being, causing her to feel even more sorrowful and in despair.
She even started entertaining the wild thoughts running through her head...
Back then, Jaybie would stay by her side when she was ill, no matter how serious the illness was.
She was desperate for his company now, but he was not here. Did he abandon her because he saw her face earlier and realized how hideous she had become?
It must be.
He had always been a perfectionist.
Angeline touched her scrawny body and began to hate her sick body.
She subconsciously blamed her body for not being beautiful enough, hence why she had failed to charm Jaybie and make him stay. 1
Though amidst her muddled thoughts, she figured that she should not be putting herself down like that. I f love could not even stand this bit of test, then how could it possibly be worth keeping?
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