(Caroline’s POV)
The sparkling water glittered back at me in the fading sunlight almost like it was teasing me. We were supposed to get in the water as the sun was setting or else this wouldn’t work, but I couldn’t bring myself to even stick a toe in. I trembled lightly as tears pricked my eyes. Everything came flooding back to me; the accident, my parents, everything.
“I don’t think I can do this,” I squeaked. I was mad at myself for how pathetic my voice sounded, but my fear of the water quickly drowned out that fear. Keegan’s thumb rubbed light circles in the back of my hand. I had to remind myself that I was doing this for Keegan. 10 minutes couldn’t hurt too much, right? I sighed and stepped forward so that my feet were in the water. I knew Keegan was smiling at me, trying to encourage me but I was too busy watching the water cautiously to tear my eyes to his.
“I’m right here, Caroline. I’m not going to let anything happen to you,” Keegan said gently. I sighed and held his hand tighter as I just went for it. I jumped in and the water surrounded me immediately. I wasn’t even worried about the December chill. I was too busy freaking out. I felt hands go around my waist before I surfaced. I had tears in my eyes as I clung to Keegan for dear life. My whole body shook as my breathing became sporadic. Keegan rubbed my back gently as he shushed me. Eventually, I finally calmed down just as the sun finished setting. It was time for the next step. I knew this would hurt so I wasn’t looking forward to it. Shakily, I set my feet on the slimy, muddy ground before I turned my back to Keegan. Slowly, I moved my hair over my shoulder and waited. I heard Keegan sigh as he hesitated. His fingers brushed over the fresh wound near my neck. I hissed in a breath as it hurt and sent shivers down my spine at the same time.
“Keegan, we’re running out of time,” I whispered.
“I’m so sorry Caroline,” he said with regret and pain weaving through his voice. He sighed before plunging his claws into my lower back. My back arched as I screamed, tears running down my face. His other hand steadied my shoulder as I felt his claws dig deeper. I sobbed and tried to keep my body from shaking too much. I could see the water around me darken as I tried to cry quietly. I didn’t want Keegan to regret changing me. After a moment, he retracted his claws out of my back. I winced at the movement before I was pulled back into Keegan’s chest. His arm wrapped over my shoulders as I heard him release a shaky breath.
“I’m so sorry,” he whispered again. I only nodded. After submerging again, we walked out of the lake and into towels that the Elder handed us. Keegan had to help me a lot, seeing as I had five gaping holes in my lower back. We walked into the house and Keegan handed me a pair of ratty shorts and a tank top as well as a sweater. I threw my wet hair up in a messy bun. We were silent as we dressed. The seriousness of what we were doing thickened the air, making us stay quiet. Keegan laced his hand with mine and led me down a secret staircase. The dark stone hallway was dank and smelled of water. It was oddly comforting. That was until I saw the large iron jail cells. I froze and stared at them wide eyes. I wasn’t expecting this part. I knew Keegan said they had to contain me and wait for the change, but I wasn’t expecting the literal cage. Keegan stopped with me and looked at me. My consciousness was teetering already when I felt a pain seer up through my back. I yelled out and slumped to my knees as the pain spread through my body.
“It’s starting. We need to get her in the cage now,” the Elder said, slightly frantic. I screamed as it felt like my body just caught on fire. Tears streamed down my face as I slid on to my side. I was scooped up and set on a cot. I knew the cot was inside the cage cell but I didn’t care at this point. The cage was actually really large, giving me a lot of room; not that I wanted to use any of it right now. I screamed as I felt something snap in my foot. Keegan laid down beside me and clutched me tightly as I let out the occasional scream.
“You need to get out of there,” the Elder bellowed at Keegan. I screamed again as the snapping feeling moved into my ankles.
“I’m not leaving her,” Keegan growled at him.
“This is going to be her first change and you know how dangerous those are for werewolves already as it is. Are you willing to risk your life and hers?” the Elder snapped back. My brain became foggy as the snapping and searing pain reached my knees. It felt like someone took an 18-wheeler at 100 miles per hour and rammed it into my legs. I heard the steel rattle with the opening and closing of the cell. I let out a strangled sob as the pain moved to my hips. I felt dizzy with pain and I was ready to pass out.
I wanted Keegan.
That was my only thought as I pushed myself off of the cot and on to the floor. My shattered legs hit the floor with a thud, making me let out a blood curdling scream. After my scream quieted into whimpers and sobs, I used my arms to drag myself closer to the gate. I pushed my hand through the opening in between the thick metal bars. My vision was blurred and my head was swimming, but I looked for him anyway.
“Keegan,” I cried. He immediately reached out and clasped my hand in his bigger ones.
“I’m so sorry Caroline. I’m so sorry,” he said quickly. Through my blurry vision, I could see that he had tears rolling down his face.
“It’s too fast. She’s changing too fast,” the Elder said. I could hear the panic seep into his voice. “It’s going too fast, her body isn’t going to be able to take it all at once,” the Elder explained. It sounded like he was in a long tunnel and getting father and father away. My yells and sobs eased a bit as everything just sort of stopped. I took a breath, thinking that maybe it was over. I couldn’t be more wrong. I contorted awkwardly as I felt the bones in my back snap. I couldn’t even scream. I inhaled deeply and just stared wide-eyed at the ceiling as pain filled my body. I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t want to do it. Slowly, I allowed my eyes to slip close.
“No! No! No! Caroline!” Keegan yelled, but he sounded so far. I heard rattling before I felt his hands scoop my up gently. I didn’t want to fight anymore. I didn’t want to feel this pain anymore. It felt like someone was dropping a bus on me. Letting out a prolonged sigh, I allowed my eyes to close all the way. I relaxed into Keegan’s chest. I could feel myself slipping and it was almost peaceful.
“She’s fading fast. You have to get her to fight through it,” the Elder said. I took a labored breath. That was too much effort so I just stopped. This was it. I wasn’t going to make it through and I knew it. I was oddly okay with the thought if it meant not feeling this pain again. I felt Keegan’s soft lips on my forehead. He kept them there as a he sobbed. I felt his wet tears against my face.
“Please… please fight. Fight for us, for our family, for Preston and Danny. We need you,” he cried with his forehead against mine. I took another labored breath as a single tear fell from my eye. I had to fight; I knew that. I couldn’t just die, leaving everyone I loved. I’d have to go through this for them… for Keegan. I inhaled a shaky breath and screamed as the pain moved to my shoulders. They snapped forward painfully. I cried as the pain continued down my arms Keegan just held me; rocking me gently. I cried as the pain snapped to my neck. Breathing became more difficult as I squeezed my eyes shut.
“It’s almost over. It’s almost over; you’re doing a great job, Care. It’s almost over. Just keep fighting,” he whispered near my ear. My crying stopped as my head snapped. My head was pounding and I couldn’t move as I head more snapping in my body. I couldn’t feel Keegan anymore but I heard him say ‘I love you’ before everything shut off. I couldn’t hear or see anything. All of my senses were gone. I still fought. I felt something extend from my backside before I could smell everything. I could smell something woodsy which I assumed came from the Elder. Next, I smelled the dank wet smell of the cellar. I smelled Keegan’s intoxicating smell of pine, spices and masculinity.
My eyes shot open and I scrambled to my feet. I had to blink for a minute. Everything around me seemed so clear. I could see each defined line of the cell and wall. I turned to see the Elder and Keegan looking at me in awe. I looked around just taking everything in with my eyes. I tried to talk but all I heard was a sort of barking and whimpering. I immediately shut my mouth. I did it. I couldn’t believe I actually did it. I bent my back to try and catch a look at my backside. I saw a bright, snow white tail wagging. I couldn’t help it, I started chasing it. I caught it, clasping my jaws around it and whimpered. I guess it was mine after all. I heard Keegan’s deep chuckle. I smiled. As soon as I did, I heard a panting. I walked in a small circle before I rolled on to my back. I cocked my head and watched as Keegan opened the gate.
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