Tangled in Moonlight: Unshifted novel Chapter 86

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86 Ava: Missed Timing

The warmth of our linked fingers burn my skin with a thousand unspoken accusations that prickle at my

conscience.

“I didn’t stop looking. I had scouts in the area, keeping an eye on your father’s home as much as they could, but we’ve historically had a problem keeping any scouts alive in Blackwood territory. We escalated the issues we had, brought our problems to Council, trying

to escalate the situation so we could infiltrate. It took

a long time before we got the evidence we needed. I hated it, but I couldn’t risk a war with the Council without anything to back up my actions.”

As Lucas recounts his efforts to find me, I can’t help but tune out, stressing over the seerets that I never

felt were secrets at the time.

Now, with this fragile peace between us–after he’s sacrificed in order to save me…

It seems like a pretty fucking shitty move to say nothing, no matter how innocent it was.

I should tell him. I know I should.

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But the words catch in my throat, tangled with a web of emotions I can’t seem to untangle. How will he react when he learns that I sought refuge from my heat with another alpha? Will he see it as a betrayal? A violation

of our fated bond?

When Selene and I spoke, it seemed so simple. He rejected me, so he has no right to be upset.

Now?

With his fingers linked through mine?

With me, alive, here, in his territory?

The thought of losing his trust, of shattering the fragile. connection that’s blooming between us, fills me with dread. And yet, keeping secrets from him feels like a disservice to what he’s done for me.

I take a deep breath, steeling my resolve. “Lucas, there’s something I need to tell you about-”

His phone rings, the sudden sound shattering the moment like a rock through a glass window.

Lucas frowns, glancing at the screen. “Shit. It’s Kellan. Hold on, Ava, I have to take this. I’ll be right back.”

His hand squeezes mine in a casual intimacy that

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breaks my heart.

I force a smile. “Of course. Go ahead.”

As he steps away to answer the call, I can’t help but berate myself for taking too damn long.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

This is going to end up being a cancer that ruins us.

It isn’t hard. Hey, Lucas, I happen to have an insane heat and I kind of went crazy, and some alpha helped 

me out in hard times. 

See?

Easy.

Pulling my knees to my chest, I rest my forehead against them and breathe long, slow breaths as my abdomen protests the movement.

Relax. You can do this. It won’t shatter everything. Lucas will understand. This isn’t going to be a repeat of the night of the Gala. He won’t think you’re disgusting. He won’t think you’re a cheater.

You’ll still be accepted for who you are.

It’s okay, Ava.

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Everything’s going to be fine.

My anxiety lessens with repeated controlled breathing. I settle into the silence with my eyes closed, concentrating on the rhythm of oxygen filling my lungs, and the soft exhale each time.

I wonder if my breath stinks. That would be embarrassing. I should brush them.

Turning my head, I lean my cheek against my knees and glance up at Lucas. His face is so gentle that my heart aches, and I curse my past self for taking our connection so lightly. Granted, the man rejected me, and how was I supposed to know that he’d rescue me in the future… but shit would be a hell of a lot easier right now if I didn’t have to worry about telling him I’d

lost my virginity to an alpha from a different naok

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