The Bride Of The Billionaire novel Chapter 21

"Raze I love you so much! I love you before everything was planned! Please! I know you love me, please say you love me!"

"I DON'T! I can't force myself loving you! I love her!" he calmly replied again.

I turn my back, I can't afford seeing them that way.

If he'll choose her, it's fine. I can unlove him right? I felt guilt, she's hurt and I feel like it's my fault.

"Lorence!" mother Sharn call me.

"Mother Sharn what should I do?" I ask sadly.

Do I have to give him up? We're not even start fully yet.

"Let them solve their own problem. Let her fix her broken heart. You'll be fine and everything will be alright. okay?" I just nod and continue walking.

I take a warm half bath, I was sleepy as I soak myself in the bathtub but I was thinking about us, I feel like a lot was against to our relationship. I was just a maid, her maid  and he was on a highest level that only lucky person can reach his position easily.

I'm still insecure about that? I feel now the gap between us too, I still feel like Sabrina was the right person for him yet social status doesn't matter right? It doesn't matter if I'm just like this?

Argh! I was fixing my bed when I hear a knock.

"That's open!" I respond.

"Love!"

"Oh, Raze, Hey! What?"

"I'll go, I'll send Sabrina home. She won't go back if I'm not the one who'll drive for her.!" he explain.

"Yeah! keep safe!" I said and continue fixing my bed sheets.

"Hey!"

"Hmm!" I responded

"Are you okay?" he ask and held both my shoulders.

"I said yeah! Go now Raze, she's waiting!" I respond and face him, smiling.

"Thanks love, I love you!" he hug me.

"I'll be back!" I just nod before he go.

I sigh, he care for her. If I didn't came in the picture maybe he fall for her already. Is it my fault? Shit!

At the dinner time everyone was shut in silence. They're looking at me like they're hiding something.

"Guys, what's wrong?" I ask

"Lorence--"

"Stop it Erika!" mother sharn stop her.

She catch my attention now.

"Mother Sharn, why?" I ask, they're driving me crazy.

"I think we don't have a right to tell you  that!" she answer sadly.

"There's no clue?" I try to convince her. She sigh and look at everyone like they're communicating through that.

What's wrong? They're hurting me..

? I wanna hold you 'til I die, 'til we breakdown and cry.?

My new ringtone rangs.

"Excuse me everyone!" I said awkwardly. It's unknown number.

Should I take this call?

Well,there's nothing wrong, right?

"Hello?" I pick up the call.

"Your end will come sooner!" it's a womans voice.

"Who are you?" I softly ask.

"No one, just no one!" she answer and laugh like evil before she hang up.

Who's that? I know that's not Sabrina! I'm sure of that.

I'm about to go back when I receive another call.

It's Raze.

"Hey!" I said instantly.

"Why you sleep here?" she worriedly ask.

I'm waiting, I'm waiting for the half of my heart.

"A-ah? ahm! did he--"

"He didn't come home! Go! Get inside" she guide me so I stand. H-he didn't come home?  I waited.

I fall asleep waiting.

"Your phone!" Mother Sharn handed me my phone.

Where did he sleep? He's with Sabrina? Is he comforting Sabrina?

We walk inside while my thoughts was totally confused and messed up plus I have my heavy feelings.

I check the time on my phone, it's already 3:40am. Gush! Raze you broke a word.

"Sleep tight Lorence!" I came to my sense because of that.

"M-mother Sharn! I don't know what to do!" I can't stop myself, I cry again.

I'm hugging myself, I'm cold, my heart felt cold.

"I want you to fight! We never saw him happy the way he did with you!" she said and hug me.

"I don't know if I'm able to fight for more, fate loves to play!" I cried, I can't stop it.

I'm mentally affected with emotionally tormented.

"Shh! I know he loves you and I want you to fight for him. Okay?" I end up believing, I end up nodding.

I'll fight if he'll fight with me.

"Good morning!" she said.

So, the new day starts and new experience is waiting.

Is it a heartbreak?

Is it a lasting love?

I don't care, I only want to be happy with him.