The Bride Of The Billionaire novel Chapter 34

I'm already here but how can I pull myself together? My phone keeps ringing and I know it's Raze. I look at it and again my tears went unstoppable. I rejected his call for the 50th time.

Shit! My heart's totally ripped.

I received a lots of messages from him and mommy Rousey. Arggh! No! I don't have a right to call her that, I don't!

Everyone's looking at me so I took a seat and wipe my tears every seconds.

From Raze: Love, I didn't know that you left already. Why? Did I do something inconvenience? I thought you're just preparing and work early. Why you leave me? Is it because your dad was sick?

He keeps on hurting me, he don't understand.

Conscience: because you didn't explain. You say nothing!

Yeah! That's right! I'm coward.

From Raze: I'm your boss, I want you back. I'm your boyfriend... No! I'm supposed to be your future husband. Love, I need you here by my side. Please, tell me what's wrong.

Answer my damn calls, please! We're happy together right? Why you have to leave?

I can't clearly see his messages since my tears loves interrupting. I feel like my strength were totally gone and seems I'm not able to move anymore.

I do regret but in what case? Do I feel regret because I fall in love with him? No! Do I regret leaving him? Yes but that's the only way to make everything fine again. Shit! I can't read any of his messages anymore or else I won't stop crying.

"I love you very much! K3U! 8 letters for you my love. I'm heartedly saying sorry but I have to end what's between us. I have a valid reason love. Hope you understand." The words I typed while crying and hardly breathing and those will be my last words for him. I blocked him to my contact list and even at my social media accounts. I must do it though I'm against. It's my pain but I can't do things to hurt me so long.

There's much hurt than leaving him and that's forcedly trying to forget him. I'm crazy!

I wipe my tears again when Stacey calls me.

"Hi, how's dad?" I saw how worried she was but I'm really hurt.

"Sis, I'm sorry! All of it won't happen if they didn't use us." Her eyes glow not because of amusement but it's because she's sad and she's sorry.

"I'm fine, that's fine. We're just not meant to be!" I answer and look away.

"Dad's one now. Anyway, your childhood friend Ron will fetch you, he volunteered."

"I see, okay! Thanks sis! You can end the line now, I'll just wait Ron here." I just don't want to hear more. I know, I can't stop my tears.

Raze, if we're meant to be... we'll meet again!

It's hard to be strangers with him again.

I was really scared to lose you but I just did. You're someone I love the most and someone I lost, I'm sorry love but incase we bump into each other in the future and then you have your own family then we'd just smile because memories would flood, that's sad.

Shit! What am I thinking? I'm just tormenting myself. We just know each other for months but I feel like I known him for years. I missed him already.

I look at the sky, were far from each other now but I hope he'll be happy with her.

"Catherine~" it's a kind of sweet yell.

I look back and it's Ron so I wave. He walk out from his car and he's now walking towards me.

He seemed more fit right now, he looks cool and handsome too yet Raze was 5x more handsome than him. Gush! I'm thinking about him again and how dare me to compare my childhood best friend to my boyfriend...e-ex boyfriend?

"Hi Ron, gush! You look great!" I exclaimed like a happy kiddo. As if.

"You're more beautiful yet you looks wasted. What happened to your eyes?" Awww, like before, he's still straightforward and can notice what's wrong immediately b-but my eyes obviously swelling.

"My eyes got irritated! I missed you. How are you?" I say and secretly grin, wishing e would not ask me about my eyes again or else he'll dig every reason of it while I'm in tears stream.

"I missed you too my childhood best friend. I miss old times that you'll cry over a candy." He said and chuckle.

"Yeah! Then you'll give me a lot though mom will scold you then the next day you'll give lollipops to me secretly and I'll hide it so mom won't get mad." I laugh. I remember how cry baby I was and he was my Knight and also my clown to entertain and to make me laugh most of the time.

I wish I'll go back being a kid where I don't have any problem than eating and endlessly playing with my friends but most of the time only Ron and I plays a lot.

"Let's go? Let's talk more later" he said and carry my suitcases and put it inside the car's compartment before he open the shotgun seat. Gentlemen as always!

Along the way he talks a lot while I keep myself great at pretending, pretending to be fine.

"Ron-ron" I suddenly utter.

I just remember the past.

"You always said it sweetly, Cathy!" I smile as he utter the name that only him calls it.

"You still remember it? I still love hearing it!" I'm glad. All of my friends always tease me before because for them 'Lorence' was only a name for a man but Ron² always cheer me up and call me Cathy! That's sweet.

"How can I forget any single things about you? I still remember how you run away from the doctor during the vaccination when we were 3 years old" he's laughing and now even his eyes became so small.

"You should forget that, that's embarrassing!" I chided though I'm laughing too. He keeps reminiscing especially embarrassing memories and crazily laugh at me.

We arrived at the hospital around 7:00 am, I just check them and go home. Ron's with me since he said he isn't busy. I just fix my things and plan to go back at the hospital but before that Ron and I drop at our favourite snack house and we eat there. Waffles, fried and chocolate ice cream again like old times. We do it often especially after school or during snack time which is every 9:00am and around 3:00 in the afternoon.

Ronier Calvin Suarez, my childhood best friend who's a professional man now, a famous architect.

The doctor said that they already had a kidney donor and tomorrow is the perfect time for the transplant.

"Hi mom, Stacey! Aww, my boy. Kiss sissy!" I said and Toby kissed me. I look at the remote control car, he's playing... It's from Raze.

It's hard for me to handle my emotions but I don't want them to see my weak part at this moment, I also don't want them to worry and blame themselves that I became like this because they use this as the main bait. Am I thinking nonsense? I don't know!

I still can't believe everything, I can't believe that I leave Raze without any explanations and I leave him though I always say that I'll fight for him.

"Sissy!" Toby wave his hand cutely in front of me, I was blank in a second so I just smile and hug him then I kiss dad's forehead, he is sleeping.

We're here now at a private room, we're just talking but I'm keeping them away from mentioning Raze's name.

"Mom, I'm very sleepy. I'm going to rest!" I said and lay down at the extension bed near the couch. Raze, I love you so much! My tears get along with me, they silently flow and I'll wipe it before everyone will notice and ask why.

I'm tired, my heart wants to give up, my mind and my body... they're all completely lose in their certain mission and I'm tired too, tired to think, to cry and to act fine. Gush!

Why Cupid hit the right person at a wrong time? He doesn't know that it's hurt to have a broken heart? Tskkk....

"Cath? Cath!"

"Hmmm?"

"It's already lunch time, let's eat!" It's mom.

I sit and look around, Ron was carrying Toby and Stacey was standing behind him, she wave at me so I smile.

Stacey decided to stay with dad while we're eating.

"Dad how are you?" I ask after kissing his forehead, he is insanely pale.

"I'm fine, I'm the one who should ask how are you. So, how are you?" I don't know but I get teary eyes.

"I'm fine dad, you see?" I said and distance myself a bit so he can see the half of me.

"Yeah, you're fine but how's your heart since--"

"Don't worry dad, you're still my number 1, okay?" I'm just avoiding the pain, I can't cry today. Just not today!

"Okay, let's talk heart to heart when I'm fine. I love you!" He utter sweetly that made me smile wide.

"I love you too dad, we're going to eat first!"

"Sure, eat well sweety!"

"Thanks dad!" We head the hospital's canteen after that.

"Here, I know you love it!"

"You still know it, Ron!" Mom said when Calvin put milkfish belly on my plate... like old times. I remember that we're trading foods when we were still kids and I'll give him my vegetables and he'll give me his milkfish belly after that he always bring milkfish belly and give it to me without any return. He is so sweet.

"We eat a lot together before so I can't forget it!" He answered and give mom a sweet smile.

"Sus! Drama!" I joked and give them a laugh.

"Just kidding, thanks Ron²" I added.

The next day, the operation started early...maybe around 6am. We're now and still waiting outside the ER, praying for dad's survival and safety.

Dear self,

Everything will work fine and everything happens with a good reason. Stay positive.

Love,

Self♥️

Around 8am the doctor announced that the operation went well so be finally breathe normally and we're relieved.

Dad stay at the hospital to recover and it takes three weeks and within those days I secretly cry every night. Sometimes I laugh at myself because I'm crying, I'm crying because of the consequences of my decisions yet I'm happy because dad eventually getting healed. Stacey go back to school like normal days and mom is always going with Toby at the kindergarten class, they're always out every and I'm here, doing the work at our grapes farm. I check the products before the delivery and I even help preparing it though we have assigned workers and sometimes I'll go with our delivery team since if I'll stay home I may just find myself crying again.

"Cathy, let's go?"

"Oh, Ron² you're already here?" We're planning to go for a drive today.

"Yeah! So you can go home early!" He's right, dad's waiting at home. Only his servant was there for him since he can't do heavy things.

"Sure, let's go!" I said and grab my body bag.

"Jane, I'll go now. Bye! Bye guys!" I wave then they just say take care.

Ron drive until we reach the old airport then he let me drive.

"You're really good at driving, you should get a car. I bet you had a good driving instructor." I just smile and nod. Raze is great and he's more than a good instructor.

I just drive 3 times going back and forth since he say I'm too good to stay practicing then he let me drive until we get home.