The Dark Side Of Fate by Karima Sa'ad Usman novel Chapter 51

~Tamia~

What a joke. Typically people are elated over something like this, but my heart was conflicted.

Every fibre of my being wanted him.

I wanted to throw away my love and promises and accept fate.

It was overwhelming and euphoric.

All that existed at that moment was him. Kaira wanted to jump and let him take us. I wanted to let her.

Devin looked up at me and came close to me.

His teary eyes searched mine, and I could see he was desperate. Desperate to have me and make me his. His eyes flashed golden, and I knew his wolf was in control.

Kaira wanted him. He touched my cheek with his palm, and I closed my eyes to feel his touch caressing my skin, enveloping me in his intoxicating scent.

"Mate," His wolf said, and Kaira wanted to respond, but I held my lips. I searched his eyes, and they were expectant.

"Why didn't you say anything that night?" I asked angrily that he had let the moment slip. If he had, I would be in the south and would have never gone to the north.

I was angry not because I went to the north, but because he knew I was suffering with Leo and didn't make a move to take me from him.

"You sent me back to his house. You let me go back!" I yelled at him, tears streaming down my face, and he bowed.

"You knew I was suffering. You knew I was in pain. You had the power to take it away. You are Alpha, and you let me go," I said and stepped back.

"Now you hold a rose and say, Mate?" I said, and Kaira pleaded with me to take it easy, but I was mad.

"Why Devin? Why didn't you save me? Why didn't you claim me? When I wanted my fated to come and rescue me, to take my pain away. I prayed so hard the goddess answered, but you weren't willing.

"Why now? Do you hate Sylvester so much that you want to hurt him the worst way ever!" I said, and he shook his head, tears streaming down his face, looking misunderstood.

"No, Tamia," he said, looking at me, and I stepped back.

"Then tell me why now? Why!" I yelled at him; my heart was beating so fast. I was fighting myself.

"I thought we had time. I wanted Leo to let you go before I stepped in," he said, and I began to laugh.

"Leo would have never let me go! I had to give myself up as a tribute to get away from him," I said, and he nodded.

"You didn't want me then; why now?" I asked him, and he shook his head.

"I always wanted you. From the moment your apple and cinnamon scent filled my senses, I had wanted you. But I wanted to wait for the right moment, the perfect moment to make you mine. I wanted to do it properly. We had allied, and I did not want to have issues with Leo. I wanted to reason with him first," he said.

"If you cared, you wouldn't have waited for perfect conditions. You would have taken me from him that night. You would have made me yours," I told him angrily.

"I wrote letters to alphas, pleading with them to let me join their pack, so I won't go rogue when I leave Leo. Meanwhile, you were there all along, waiting for the perfect moment that would never come because the world doesn't work that way, Devin. There is no such thing as perfect. It is an illusion, a lie we tell ourselves, and you gambled me away with that decision. You left me to rot with Leo and Amanda."

He reached for me and crashed his lips on mine. Kissing me.

I wanted to push him away, but my body responded. He was tugging on the bond, and Kaira let him.

He moved to my sweet spot and sucked it grazing his teeth over it desperately,

"Green-eyes", I heard Sylvester in my head, giving me the strength to push Devin away.

"That is dubious," I said, shaking my head.

"Please, Tamia, you do not have to return to him. Come with me. I will protect you. I will fight him," He said, and I laughed.

"You didn't want to fight Leo for my sake, but you are willing to fight Sylvester?" I said, and he nodded.

"I won't let you use me as bait for your Wolf Lord agenda. I refuse to be used," I told him, and he pulled me close and shook his head.