The Lycan King novel Chapter 15

Avalyn

I saw my real Master looking at me worriedly. I took a deep breath. My saviour had saved me. He was gone. I am safe.

Maste- Nikolai wiped my ears and smiled a wobbly, trembling smile at me. That made me cry more.

"Come with me." Nikolai said, pulling me by my hand and making me stand up. He pulled me in the washroom and told me to wash my face. Then he took some blankets with him and started walking, holding my hand. I didn't ask questions, I followed him. I trusted him.

We were walking towards the end of the beach where the big rocks were and I frowned. It was cold here and I had worn hardly any clothing. He placed a huge bedsheet on the sand and sat on, tapping the space next to him, motioning for me to sit. He wrapped the blanket around us once I settled next to him.

"Whenever I feel sad, when I miss my mom, I come here. The depth of the ocean and seeing how big it is reminds me of how small I am, how small my problems are compared to other people, compared to you." He whispered while he was looking at the ocean. I sucked a harsh breath at that. He was sharing something about himself, something he rarely did.

"What I'm trying to say is that, this is a big world and everyone has problems, everyone has their own demons, some bigger and some smaller. I'm not saying I understand your pain, I can't even imagine in my wildest dreams how you endured that and are still so beautiful, inside and out, still so pure and innocent. But your heart is troubled, like so many people out there. I can't help everyone but please, let me help you. Tell me how do I help you? I am helpless and desperate, please Avalyn, help me help you." He whispered as he turned towards me.

"Being with you helps, being close to you helps." I whispered.

"But it's not enough, you still get nightmares." He told me, wiping the tears that leaked.

"I haven't had them in a while. Today was a trigger I guess." I told him the truth.

"Please tell me what happened today," he pleaded.

"I had made traditional Russian food for all of you, I wanted to make everyone happy. But I tripped and the cake fell down and I felt very bad about it, Nikolai. There was a time when I didn't get food for days and here I am, wasting it. I spoilt the hard work behind it, I used to get punished if I dropped anything while cooking or eating too. Sofiya had told me it was your favourite cake and I was more mad at myself that I couldn't do a simple job. I just wanted to make you happy, I want to make you proud Nikolai. I wanted you to eat that cake and see the smile on your face while you did. I want to be a good girl. Your good girl." I told him the truth.

"You are a good girl, Ava. You didn't fall down, Violet tripped you, Love. And you do make me happy, I'm the happiest I have ever been in my life with you and I'm very proud of you, Moya Lyubov. I'm so in awe of your strength, that even after everything, you are still so amazing, you are a warrior Ava." He told me quietly, looking deep in my eyes.

I turned to look at the water. The moon looked beautiful and its reflection made the water sparkle. It was truly a sight to behold, even more than during the day. I needed time to process his words. Me? A warrior? I feel so weak.

"You can make me the cake later Ava, I won't mind if it gets spoiled, you can make me whatever you want and whenever you want and I will always love it. You are worth more than you believe yourself to be. Next time, I don't want you worrying yourself over anything. You are my Queen, my Love, you should not bother yourself with these things. Let me deal with whatever it is, all I need if for you to rule by my side." He whispered.

"I don't think I'm the right one to rule." I told him.

"But you are the right one for me Ava and I'm never ever letting you go. You don't have to rule alone, I'll always be with you, by your side, you will become the Luna and I will be helping you through every step in the way." I heard him say.

"You saw what happened today, do you want someone like that by your side, as your Luna? Someone that can't handle themselves?" I asked him.