The Playboy Alpha is my Mate novel Chapter 3

Why does it hurt so much?

Sarah pov.

 

He left me breathless and with a hysterical heart. I tried to take even breaths, hoping to calm my frantic heart. I could feel it pounding in my rib cage and the blood rushing in my veins. I felt hot and cold at the same time. I was sweating yet, my hands were numb with cold.

 

I couldn’t believe that I had kneed him where the sun doesn’t shine. It was just a reflex action I was used to. In high school, lots of the stronger male wolves had tried to take advantage of us rank less females. They would try to lure helpless she wolves and just use them however they pleased.

 

It took a lot of courage and strength to face them and stay away from their clutches. And kneeing them in the balls was my signature move. It would buy me enough time to run away from them saving myself from them.

 

Some of the girls were not so lucky. Some of them were forced into submission while others happily offered themselves to the males. To me, that was just plain gross. Why would I want to make out or sleep with numerous males while most of them were proud self centred assholes?

 

I had always wished that my mate would be kind and considerate. I wished to have a loving relationship with him. Never in my life had I thought that the snobby man whore of an alpha would be my mate. I sighed.

 

I guess I shouldn’t have expected anything else. Most of the males on our pack were flirts. I pouted as I felt my eyes sting with tears. Maybe I should focus on my work. Worrying about my mate must wait. I need my paycheck. That was the whole reason why I was here anyway.

 

Time passed. I tried to focus. But my stupid wolf was whining in my head. I felt an unexpected urge to walk through that door and barge into his office. Why was this stupid bond making me want to do crazy things?

 

“Gaaaah!” I groaned in exasperation. I slammed the pen in my hand and stood up from my seat to make my way to his office which was just a few feet away.

 

Maybe I should go. Perhaps I should try to earn his forgiveness for my earlier actions. He was my mate, and he had every right over me. Yes. I should try to explain myself.

 

I sighed and straightened my clothes as checked myself out from the mirror in the attached toilet. I looked ok. Smiling at my reflection, I took in a deep breath.

 

“I’ve got this. Let’s go and talk to mate.” I whispered to myself and walked out of the cabin. His office was just a few steps away.

 

Suddenly I felt my stomach churn uneasily. Frowning I forced the down that had to come out of my mouth. What was going on? I wondered. This sure was a weird day. As I got close to the door, a strange noise that came from inside his office made me freeze.

 

The continuous sound of skin slapping and the moans of pleasure. My breathing hitched. What was going on in his office?

 

My conscience was telling me that I should most probably go away. But the sound that filtered through the unlocked wooden door definitely didn’t sound very good to me. What could he be involved in?

 

Curious, I opened the door without bothering to knock. The sight in front of me made me feel as though the world had stopped revolving.

 

All I saw was some scattered clothes on the floor and two nude figures beside the table. It took a moment for me to realise that the one standing and ramming into the naked woman was my mate. Alpha Michael. The sound of their moans and groans was proof that both of them were indeed enjoying what they were doing.

 

The entire room was filled with their moans and with each thrust, I felt my heart shatter into tiny pieces. My conscience was right. I should have left. But I was naive to realise what that sound was. Never in my life had I had such an experience nor have I seen nor heard such a scene. I was innocent. Too innocent to even search and watch porn at home.

 

But I guess all of that is now in the past. I stood frozen, unable to move a muscle as my mate looked at me and grinned as though he was proud of what he was doing in his office. He slowed down a bit and stared at me for some time. I could feel his unexpressed taunts pierce daggers in my already broken heart.

 

“Ah...faster faster.....” the she wolf who was bent over urged through her gasps of breath. He growled and increased his pace.