The Shark Mafia Boss novel Chapter 92

Raphael POV

We arrive at home and Olivia looks tired. We’ve been to the cemetery because she wanted to see Michael. She is still dealing with his death. She thinks it’s all her fault and she can’t talk about him still. Today would’ve been his birthday. So she had asked me if we could go see him, and I said yes. He was my friend too. Olivia still has nightmares with him and that makes her extremely uncomfortable.

I walk into the bathroom and I get a bubble bath ready for Olivia. It’s been two weeks since she got back home and she is feeling better but the pregnancy and all the stress we’ve been going through is taking a toll on her. She is scared to go out on her own, but she wouldn’t anyway, I have always bodyguards with her.

Baby Mike is sleeping all through the night and that makes my life a lot easier. I like to take care of him at night. I spend all day at work and I have him all to myself at night. My eyes open every time he breathes a little louder. I can’t have deep sleep anymore. Is this how it’s going to be forever? I will be worried if he is okay every time he is not near me?

Olivia walks into the bathroom and smiles when she sees her bubble bath ready for her.

“Thanks “ - she says kissing me

“I’ll leave you to it”

“Don’t you want to join me? Little person big tub” - she says and I smile

I hug her and kiss her. I miss kissing her. I miss Olivia.

“I have work to do” - I say

“Okay, don’t come home too late” - Olivia says and I nod.

“Is Maria with Mike?”

“Yes she is” - I say giving her another kiss and walking out.

I would love to stay and fuck her, especially because I haven’t touched her since the crash. It’s been a month and my balls are turning blue already. Olivia lost her will of having sex and I have to understand that. She says she doesn’t feel desirable but fuck, I desire her, every inch of her. But at the end of the day if she doesn’t want to have sex I just have to respect it. I read on one of the many books she bought that it happens a lot.

I am struggling to be faithful. I am but I am doing it. It is hard for me. Really Hard. I am afraid I am going to lose it and I might just have some random sucking me off to release me. I know I can’t do that but I am very tempted. I am not a good person but I do love Olivia.

I walk into the living room and baby Mike is playing on the play area we created for him. Maria is sitting on the sofa looking after him.

“Leaving again?”

“I have some business that needs my attention”

“Your future wife needs your attention” - she says

“I know, but after this is sorted I am all hers”

“Raphael, she misses you, you are never home and when you are you are taking care of Mike” - Maria says

“I am his father”

“I know, but she is expecting your daughter and you are not giving her enough attention “

“I am trying my best”

“It’s not enough son”

I take a deep breath.

“What the fuck do you want me to do?” - I say passing my hands through my hair.

“Stop screwing around” - Maria says

“I haven’t”

“Don’t you lie to me boy” - she says and I sit next to her.

“I really haven’t, I’m not going to lie that I have thought about it, but I haven’t acted on it” - I say

“She deserves better than that son, if you can’t keep it in your pants maybe you should let her go and find someone who can”