The Silent Alpha novel Chapter 66

***Christian***

 WHERE THE f**k IS SHE?!?

I pant as I look around at the mess I’ve created, my hand bleeding from shattering the family portrait hanging on the wall.

I run my fingers through my hair as I try to compose myself, but my rage is hard to contain knowing I am so close yet so far from having Natalia and my pup again.I have been so patient these past few days, hoping Natalia would turn up but she’s determined to tear me apart.

The answer is right in front of you and yet, you refuse to see it, Jack snarls.

Vm not killing my mother! I snap, staring at the framed photograph of my mother and Talia at the beach now shattered on the floor, Then watch me burn it all to the ground! Jack sneers, his wrath seeping into my veins.

He fights for control, Jack clawing his way to the surface and attempting to shove me as far back to the depths of my mind as he can.

Just as I feel myself about to lose the battle, a knock at the door distracts Jack enough for me to push through and lock him out.

The door creaks open, my mother poking her head in and waving hello to me side.

My mother stands still and unfazed by my behavior, her dress perfectly ironed, her hair combed neatly in place without a hair out of place.

As always, she wears heels and has a cool, unwavering smile on her face.

"Christian," She says in a soothing voice as she walks carefully over the debris on the office floor.

"I see you’re not having a good evening." She scrutinizes my disheveled hair and the blood on my hand, shaking her head disapprovingly at me.

"Almost thirty years old and throwing a tantrum, are we?" She chuckles condescendingly.

"And I thought Vanessa was a mess."

"If you are here to pester me, you may leave," I mutter, resting my hands on my desk to feel some sense of stability in all this turbulence.

"Oh Christian," my mother sighs, her heels clicking towards me.

"Go away, Mother," I huff.

"It’s past your bedtime.Doesn't every perfect Luna need her beauty sleep?" I smile coldly.

"Perhaps," she laughs, placing her hands on my shoulders.

" But my son needs me more." I side eye her and she smiles her perfect smile at me, the same smile she taught Natalia.

"Shall we go on a little midnight run?" she hums, gently of you brooding here in your office.

DOTT, Jack chants menacingly.

KILL HER...

I fight the voice in my head but he growls so loudly, I just want him to stop.

"Come on Chrissy.Let’s go for a run," my mother murmurs, her heels clicking away as she turns to leave.

Jack breaks through as my mother leaves the room and reaches for the syringe I’ve kept hidden in my drawers.

It contains a lethal dose of wolfsbane that the witches gave me to complete my task.

No!\s****m at him but Jack stuffs the syringe into my pocket nonetheless and turns to leave.

I manage to fight my way back to the surface as I walk out of the house towards the surrounding woods to find my mother.

The sound of rustling behind a large tree and the scent of her sweet perfume alerts me that my mother is undressing and I stop in my tracks to give her some privacy.

Before long, a dark majestic brown wolf steps out from behind the tree and comes to greet me, my mother nudging me with her snout and urging me to shift.

I feel Jack creeping up on me but I swallow back his rage and hide behind the tree to shift, tucking the syringe within my pile of clothes.

I don’t need it, I don’t need it, I don’t need it, I chant to myself, my bones rearranging into Jack taking command of my body as I present myself to my mother.She performs a play bow, her tail wagging playfully as she leans her weight on her hind legs and waits.

I accept her bow, my mother taking off in a sprint into the woods.

We chase after each other and, for a brief moment, I feel like a kid again playing tag with my mom as we feel the wind in our fur.

But it doesn’t last long.

The moment we approach a cliff overlooking a valley of trees, my anger and my fears come racing towards me all at once.

"What's on your mind, love?"

My mother mind-links me as she plops down near the edge of the cliff to groom herself.

I sit silently on my hind legs, my mind drifting to thoughts of me bringing my own pup here to the cliffs for a midnight run.I’ve now memorized his little face and know I could pick him out in a crowd of people.

What is he like? I wonder.

Surely, he is a strong boy with all the makings of a true Alpha.

"You're thinking of her again, aren’t you?" my mother asks, settling beside me.

"I miss her too.She was a very special girl.I don’t say a word, knowing I f****d up to ever trade a diamond for a stone.

"I am sorry you hurt her...but you have to live with the consequences of your actions," my mother murmurs.

"You need to least I pray she does." I growl at her but she pays me no mind and continues.

"thope she is happy," she adds.

"I pray she is alright every night."

"She'll be better here with me," I snarl, my mother giving me an amused smile.

"I’ll take care of her and our pup."

"Oh, like how you took care of her the first time?" My mother snorts, my wolf growling at her tone.

"I made a mistake!"

I snap at her, my mother chuckling to herself.

"Mistake? No.You made a conscious decision to hurt your wife over and over again for several months," my mother berates me.

"Get that through that thick head of yours.You cheated knowing she would feel it.So own up to it.You did this.You tore your family apart, not her."

"I am not the only one who tore my family apart.I cheated on my wife… not my son,"

I retort. I missed out on the first four years of his life because of her lie.

Natalia took him from me.

I have every right to demand to be a part of my son’s life."