Janice came in and saw the unfinished steak and Spaghetti Bolognaise on the table. She could tell at a glance that it was made by Jim.
In the past, he only cooked for her. He said that except her, he would never cook for anyone else. Why did everything change eight years later? He let Eva into his villa, made steak for her, and made Spaghetti Bolognaise for her. She enjoyed all the privileges she could enjoy. She enjoyed the privileges she had never enjoyed.
Was this Eva more important than her in his heart?
She felt so sad. She didn't want to be replaced. She still wanted to be his only one!
She had thought that after Eva and Vinton got married, he would give up completely and give his heart back to her. Unexpectedly, something bad happened to Vinton.
Although Eva was married, this wedding was not legal at all. What she married was just a photo, an empty shell. As long as she wanted, she could remarry at any time.
"Eva, why do you have to torture yourself like this? If you marry him like this, you will be lonely for a lifetime, won't you?" She pretended to be sad.
"I'm not lonely at all. Vinton is still in my heart. He does not leave me. We are a real couple now. Even God can't separate us," Eva said in an extremely firm tone, as if she was fighting against the cruel and ruthless God.
'The universe is unconscious; it regards everyone as insignificant. Even if it gives them one more night and let Vinton and I have a child of love, it won't leave indelible regret and pain now, ' Eva thought.
"Eva, you can still love others. Even if Vinton knows it in heaven, he won't blame you." Janice patted her on the shoulder.
Shaking her head, Eva said, "I won't love anyone else, and I won't be loved as Vinton does to me. I just want to spend the rest of my life alone with my little Vinton."
A muscle on Jim's face twitched slightly. He thought the same way when Janice died, but when he met his enemy of three life time, he suddenly realized that love was also divided into many kinds.
Some love existed in the dopamine, while some love existed in the heart. There was also love engraved in the soul and bone marrow. His love for Janice belonged to the second kind. And the first and third one for heaven pepper.
When he was with Janice, he wanted to protect her, cherish her and protect her from getting hurt. When he was together with heaven pepper, he felt like he was flipped, like burning fire. He couldn't control himself. He wanted to conquer and possess her. He wanted to melt her into his bones, so that she could never escape. She could only belong to him forever.
He didn't know what kind of love Eva had with Vinton. Anyway, he hoped that he could have a chance, even just a little. Even if he failed in the end and was refused ruthlessly, he had no regret.
While he was thinking, Essie came in.
It suddenly occurred to her that during the two months in Country M, Eva hadn't had a period. She had been with her all the time. She knew very well whether she had it or not.
She sent a message to her the other day that she would give herself to brother. They must have had sex. Maybe God would pity him and leave him a bloodline.
"Eva, haven't you had your period for two months?" Essie said.
Jim and Janice were stunned at the same time. Jim had thought about it before, but he didn't know if Eva had a period or not, so he didn't think too much later.
Eva nodded. She was so sad that she didn't have a good meal and took sleeping pills. She was suffering from endocrine disorders. But when he saw the excited look on Essie's face, she guessed that she must have thought of that possibility.
"Eva, that's great. You are probably pregnant. You are going to have a baby with brother," Essie said happily. It was a blessing in disguise. It was a comfort for the Xu family that Eva could give her brother a child.
"Really? Eva? That's great!" Janice clapped her hands, which was absolutely a great good news for her. Since Eva had a child with Vinton, Jim would definitely not want her.
Eva wiped the sweat on her forehead. How could she explain that she was destroyed by the tsunami before she had sex with Vinton. She was still a virgin, pathetic and hateful. If Vinton didn't come back, she would be a virgin forever!
Thinking of this, she wanted to cry. If she had given herself to Vinton earlier, she might have a baby now. It was pathetic for a woman to give herself to a bad man, but it was more pathetic for her not to give herself to a man worthy of her trust.
Jim picked up his coat and put it on her. "I'll take you to the hospital for a check-up. If you are pregnant, you must be careful and take good care of yourself."
"Yes, yes." Essie nodded like a chicken pecking rice.
Eva sighed heavily, "No, I'm not pregnant."
"You haven't had a period, have you?" Hearing that, Essie was slightly stunned.
"No, I did not have a period these two month. But it is because of endocrine disorders. I'm not pregnant." Eva sat on the sofa, tears welling up in her eyes. She was such a loser. She couldn't give herself to Vinton, nor could she have a baby with him.
"That day, you texted me and said that you would give yourself over to my brother. Did you..." Essie asked. Everyone knew what she didn't say later.
Eva wanted to say no, but the words became 'yes'. She wanted to be Vinton's real wife.
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