Why did she " Divorce Me " novel Chapter 32

Adhira Pov.:-

( Varun's mother )

After coming back from Varun's house ... I am seating in his bedroom which is in my father-in-law's house .

I am hurt .. no hurt is a small word to express my pain ... Actually it's killing me , my son .. Varun can do this ... How!? .

How can he steps this low , I have never thought of him to do such sins ..

It's all happened because of me ... If I had taught him good things , good manners , and haven't choose my career over him

.. than maybe ... Perhaps today he would have been a good person, a human being, and a good husband.

I have ruined my son's life by own carelessness .

I still remember .. I wanted to become a cardiologist but at the age of 19 I got married to my husband Mr. Gyan Arora ... Forcefully by my uncle aunty as there words used to rule in my family while my parents can't support me ..

Our marriage was a arranged marriage , but in the last , after trying hard not to fall for my husband ... I fall in love with him ... Completely.

And i got pregnant with Varun .... I was at my 7 month pregnancy when my lovely husband got to know about my dream ...

Why he didn't got to know about it before because ... I was quite reserved about telling about my likes or dislikes or about my opinions or about my life to anyone.

So, he support me and encourage me to make my dream come true .. but my father-in-law apposed it ..

Both my husband and father-in-law fight over my studying topic ... And end up making a deal ...

Which said ' if I passed entrance exam then only I will study another wise no ' all thanks my mother-in-law.

After the delivery ... I was selected in an government medical College by passing my exam.

On that time Varun was 4 month infant... But I have to leave the house as my college was in the other state ... Which was top second medical College in whole India.

I wanted to take him with me as he was so small but my in-laws was against it ... At that time I had made my mind on giving up my study but my husband assured me that he will take his good care .

At last I had to leave him here in this house .. with his grandparents and with his father .

I used to come house at my vacations and my that time is only for my son... Varun ...

We both used to play with his toy balls ,cars and there is a funny thing which he loved to do ....

Hahahaha.... He used to covered his eyes with his hands and started to shout ' mommy help me ... I can't see anything , it's dark here ' but he didn't removed his hands over his eyes .

See this much innocent he was but all ruined by myself ...

Although I am living my dream but there is no peace in my heart why ! ... Because I have lost the true happiness or the time when I can make a happy memories with my son ...

I forgot that ' with the time our dreams also change '...

And after giving birth to Varun my doctor becoming dream was turned into becoming a good mother of my son but I neglect it ..

How inhuman I was ... *Sob*.

Now I looked back at the time when Varun was small there is very small time which i has spend with him ... In which , I am feeling him , or caressing his sleeping face , or playing with him ... His first word was maa , his first step .. him all lovely dovely talk with his both siblings ... That's it ... No more memories .

Why ...

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It became hard when he turned 3 year old ... He used to cry for me saying ' mommy please don't leave me ... Mommy please take me with you '

*Sob*

*Sob*

*Sob*

If I had left my study then I have my innocent and pure hearted son with me ...

My son used to cry for his mother love but me .. I was blind behind my dream .. I have become a best cardiologist but I cursed my innocent son's heart under it ...

When I came back after completing my MBBS...

I hadn't visit home for 2 years because Varun usually used to cry when I had to leave the house to came back for the study

And it hurts the most seeing his crying face .

And My father-in-law had said me on that time ' If you really want to study then do your study, don't come home again and again, to make this child cry for you ... '

That's why I stop visiting home ...

After reaching home I was so shocked when I didn't found my son at home ... ... My in-laws and his father has send him to boarding school at the age of 5 ..

That's was really shocking because Varun was an apple of eye ... No one can see tears in his eyes then what happened which make them to send Varun in the boarding school .

I was so angry on them ... Even my mother-in-law didn't had any idea about it ... And both the man's didn't opened their glued mouth .

I tried to take him back to home but Varun apposed saying ' I don't want to go in that house and I am very happy here mom , go away '

That was the first time when he had shout on me with angry face and he didn't call me maa or mommy like he used to call me before with love .

His those words were not sounding like a small kids words ... only his body was a kid's body .

Every kid used to visit their parents , and went to their house at vacations but Varun ... He never come back house in his vacation by his own will .

I used to visit him there in his school hostel but stopped when I again got pregnant with my twins ... As my gynecologist strictly ordered be for bed rest .

After my delivery Varun visited me in hospital that time his face is all emotionless but his face bloomed in happiness when he saw his little siblings in the small crib .

' maa look she is looking like you ... Beautiful ' Varun had said in his baby voice while patting Kashvi's cheeks to make her grab his one finger in her small fist .

That was the first and last time when Varun had talked with me in his true self ... But only for his siblings he used to visit home in his vacation willingly.

I continued my study but also took care of my twins ..

Kashvi and Kabir both get mother love from me and the care and love which a little infant needs .

I also showered my all maternity on both of them while missing my Varun...

A mother truely loves her all kids equally but her one child really has a special and reserved place in her heart .

And in my heart Varun has that place ... And still he do have .

Without my knowledge my son ... Went far away from me , I know he loves me , and cares about me but don't know what happened ...

Why he went to boarding school , why he never talked properly with his father and grandfather.

No matter how hard I tried to put all things in a proper track but all went in vain ..

Although Varun never disobeyed their words but he never showed that affection and love or care which a kids has in its their heart for his father and grandfather .

There is always a fire or rage covered his eyes whenever his father or grandpa talked with him or asked or tell him to do something.

I am looking his childhood pics ... He was a good child till he was 4 ... But I don't know what went wrong and all things messed up .

*Sob*

In one pic he is cuddling kashvi while sleeping ...

He really adores kashvi a lot ...

He had always treat kashvi and Kabir like his children .









Varun's pic ...













In each pic he is looking so cute ... My baby ..

*Sob*...

Mommy really miss you ..

I can't blamed him for what he had done to Amoli ... It's all happened only because of me because I am failed as a mother ...

I failed to teach him , give respect to women's , good manners and all the good things which make us a good human being ... and him A gentleman.

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Advaith's Pov.:-

I came out from the police station after giving them my sister's information which they need to find her .

I am also searching her , everywhere ... Even at my uncle's house where she never visited after her bad encounter with our cousin sister .

She not here ... Where did she went ...

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