Why did she " Divorce Me " novel Chapter 44

Varun's Pov.:-

I reached to my parents house at next morning .. my head is hurting very badly due to too much consume of alcohol at previous night .

I came inside the house and went to my room ... I got ready in my office outfit and came down to have breakfast .

" Good morning everyone " I greet them ... And kissed my sister's head ...

She is four month pregnant now , .. and her bump is showing now .

I set on my place to have my food ... Although I don't have appetite but still I am  having food so that , I can sit with my family for these 15-20 minutes ..

" Ohhhh my ... It's Amoli right !? " My mother said .. looking at a picture in news paper .

I stopped.. for a minutes and went in flashback .. how beautiful she was looking yesterday .. although she didn't spare me single glance like she spared everyone with smile and respect.

I know I don't deserve it from her as I know my place ..

Maa showed it to others ... And I also looked at it .. with the headlines ... ' Miss. Amoli Anand ex-wife of known businessman Mr. Varun Arora , spotted in business award function with her date Mr. Grayson Wright ' .

There is her pic only as Grayson don't like his pictures to publish on news papers so , his picture is not on it ...

" Yes it's her .. she is back in her house .. " I said ..

" Okay than I want to meet her .. we all are going to her house .. " mother said ..

" Okay ... Kashvi do you also wanna go with mother ? " I asked her .. she nods her head in yes and I sighed in relief .

" Okay today your doctor is coming for your check up .. " I said her and she nod her head .

She was never like this before .. she had  never  given small replies .. she was a talker machine .. but now she only says one or two words ... All day quite . No smile nothing just an robot .

I sighed and everyone got ready to go amoli's house .. I also want to see her but I stopped myself because she hates me ..

And her this hate towards me is killing me but at the same time my good side says that I deserve it ..

Doctor came to check kashvi .. I was escorting her to Kashvi's room when she suddenly asked me " who is she to you ? "

" Who ? " I asked to which she motioned her finger towards my left at amoli's pictures ... Her these pictures are our engagement's .

" She is my wife ... Hmm .. I mean ex-wife " .. I said ..

" Ohhhh " she mouthed this ohhhh sound ... To make me confused do she know her ? 

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She left house after checking kashvi ...

Everyone went to amoli's house to meet her and I am the only one who is in this big house all alone .

To kill my time I went to library .. as my mind is running in amoli's thoughts .. and what that doctor has told me about her ...

After listening that doctor's words my blood boiled and I wanted to break something hard .. either my head or amoli's ..

How could she do this ? .. she faced this much alone and didn't tell me ..

I would have saved her .. but no she took other path .. she ran away after handing me divorce papers .

I will get her back .. either by hook or crook because she won't going to marry me again by her will .

' but don't you think it's wrong and she will hate you more ' my inner self said ..

' right but I can't live without her .. ' I said to myself pulling my hairs ..

I picked out any book in my hand and it was story of beauty and beast ...

I read it and .. soon I felt hungry , so I went to kitchen and had my lunch in all silence .. this silence is making me insane .. I am feeling suffocating here ..

I just want to cry ... So I cried and cried ... *Weeping* ..

My phone ringed ..

" Hello " I answered my phone .

" Hello bhai .. we are not coming today .. we are staying at amoli's house .. okay bye " Kabir said and cut the call after hearing my reply ' okay take care ' .

I layed on my bed to look at amoli's pictures ...

I again remembered how was our first meet .. she was always a kind woman .. but I was a fool to see her ..

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Soon it's evening time and .. Parth and Wright's brothers came to my house .. as decided

They settled themselves comfortably in living room and talked , I gave them privacy to talk .

I came out through back door in garden where I have planted lot of flower plants because every beautiful thing remind me about her ..

And these flowers plants remind me about her body fragrance and her pure nature ..

She is as beautiful as this beautiful nature .

Smile came to my face but it disappeared with a thought ' I am her life ruiner .. I don't deserve her .. she was right that I have ruined her beyond repair . '

I made a quick call and planned a gift for Amoli .. it will make her happy .. why I planned gift for her .. because I want to see smile on her face because of me ..

I am not doing this to bribe her .. like making happy with gift and gain her thrust through it and I couldn't gain anything from her by giving her gift because she not some gold digger ...

It just for her ... 

We all had our dinner while me hearing them .. Parth is telling them how he is handling all tantrums of rooh's pregnancy .

I chuckled but got upset when I thought about amoli's pregnancy ..

Only if he have behaved humanly with her .. and given her respect to with our marriage .. than maybe she will be with me today with our baby ...

Again my mind run its imagination where I am seating playing with my baby and Amoli is scolding us for making mess in cleaned room ...

' hold your imagination ' my inner voiced mocked me .. stealing away smile from my face .

I am sad while happiness is around me but still I can't be happy because my happiness is my wife .. and I am soreness in her eyes .

Soon they bid bye and went to their house ...

I went to my room .. but when I closed my eyes ... Amoli's shouting , her crying all the things came rushing infront of my eyes to scared the soul out of me ..

I sighed and took my sleeping pills .. they are the only way to make me sleep and other is alcohol ...

Both are not good for health ..

Soon .. I lost in deep sleep ..

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' dada ' .. I heard a little child's voice ..

' dada ' this time I felt slap on my face and wait over my body ..

I opened my eyes to see beautiful blue eyes like me ..

' dada ' she again said ... Aww my baby .. she is saying dada in her cute baby voice .

' my baby ' I said and was about to kiss her  forehead but someone pulled her away from me ..

I ran behind my daughter who is going away from me .. by a person who I am unable to see ..

' no please live my child .. please give me back my child .. please ' I said while running ..

I saw Amoli in my way I went to her .. she is in tears .. she is crying ..

' we will find her .. ' I said to her but she slapped me saying ' no we couldn't find her anymore .. because she is not anymore .. she died all because of you .. you are a murderer .. you kill my child .. '

' No '

' No '

' No '

' I am not a murderer .. I didn't kill my child.. no I am not a ... ' ..

* Panting *

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I calmed my uneven heartbeats ... My body is all sweaty ...

That was one of the most horrible terrifying bad dream .

I looked at the time it's 5 in the morning .. I got up and did my workout ..

" Hello maverick .. I want a favour from you .. " I said over my phone .

" Hello to you too , yup tell me what do you want ? " He said from the other side of phone ..

" Can you .. can you ask Amoli for a lunch .. actually I want to have some words with her but as you know she is my ex-wife and our relationship was not in good terms .

So, she won't come if I call her .. that why I need your help " I said ...

" But dude she will kill me if she got to know your plan and me being involved in it .. sorry man I can't help you in it " he said ..

" Stop being coward .. can't you get some punches for me ... " I teased him ..

" Hahaha .. very funny .. have you seen her those big scary eyes .. they hold power to kill a person itself by one look " he said ..

" Please dude please man help me .. please " I literally begged him