Claudia was an illegitimate daughter of the Evans family. Her real mother wasn't Blair; it was someone else.
It was a public secret in the upper class.
That was why Blair couldn't care less about Claudia, and everybody else took that for granted.
Maybe Marshall had heard this from someone, and maybe he had figured it out on his own... anyway, he surely had sniffed something.
The first thing that came to Claudia's mind was to deny it. She shook her head and denied using signal language, “No, you misunderstood!”
Before her hands finished moving, Marshall talked to her again. This time, he grabbed her arms and said hysterically, “Don't you lie to me again! You've been hidden it away from me for such a long time. I should've known better, but...”
He was suddenly choked by words.
Marshall was emotional at that time.
Claudia and he grew up together. Their family matched them for a couple when they were young. He believed that she was the only one for him and had been deeply in love with her.
When Claudia and Ben announced the date of their wedding, Marshall was working abroad. He knew there was a world of fair reasons for the marriage, but he still couldn't accept that. When he was back, Claudia had already become Mrs. Crawford.
Claudia took a deep breath and shook her head again.
She signed, “It's not like that. Marshall! You misunderstood!”
Marshall replied, “No, I didn't. Claudia, we grew up together and have had feelings for each other for so long. I can't figure out any reason why you would marry someone else.”
Claudia frowned deeper when she heard this.
She sighed and then signed, “Let me explain...”
“I know you've been treating me nicely, and I see you as my big brother, a family member... but I have never thought that we would end up together as a couple. Also... you should know that I wasn't forced into this marriage!”
She was telling the truth.
She knew Marshall had loved her for many years, but she had never given him any positive response. Every time he tried to confess his love to her, she would reject him.
He didn't know the reason why he was constantly rejected, now it all made sense.
Claudia looked embarrassed. She shook her head. Marshall never thought that she would have such a strong action.
He had known her since they were little children. He knew she would be calm no matter what problem she was faced with. She was far from an impetuous woman, unless...
Suddenly, he took a wild guess.
Marshall looked at her in surprise. His body froze and his pale lips murmured, “Is it because...”
“Is it because he's the one you've loved for all these years?”
As he asked the question, he saw Claudia's gaze pause and her head stop shaking. He knew that was a positive signal.
For all these years, she had been keeping him outside. He knew she had a beloved one hidden in her heart, but she had never talked about it, and he had never asked.
Marshall found himself in an embarrassing position now. His dark and sharp eyebrows slightly creased. After a long while, he asked, “Do you love him?”
Before he finished speaking, Claudia signed, “I know he doesn't love me, and I know our marriage is ridiculous, but Marshall, this is my choice, and I have the right to proceed. I'm sorry.”
She continued, “I hope you can be happy, but I'm not the one that can make you happy. I'm sorry.”
Marshall forced a smile and said, “Don’t be. You've never promised anything to me.”
It was always his own wishful thinking.
It was secret and unrequited love.
That was all about it.
She didn't have to apologize.
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