John was silent; suddenly, he didn’t know how to explain himself.
"It should’ve been a while ago, no? At least, before we went to that beach,” Cordy said.
She found it ironic as she recalled it now.
To think she did so much to make him remember their past.
She even prostrated herself, prepared a parental test, and used his identity to make him take responsibility for Dicky.
But in the end, he had always known.
The entire time, she was just making a fool of himself.
"I just—"
"I'm sorry, but I don't want your explanation," Cordy said, cutting him short. "It won't do anything aside from adding to my troubles."
As John stared at Cordy, she continued, "To make myself clearer, I will cut ties with you no matter what you say now. I refuse to suffer emotional blackmail."
There was a hint of misery in John's eyes, but he nodded silently.
Yes; she would always be that rational, and nothing could change anything she decided on.
He was the one who thought that he could still be with her when everything was over, with the assumption he would earn Cordy's forgiveness by shaping himself to be a hero…
Cordy went on coolly, "Right now, things are going well between myself and Patrick. I don't want to be your mistress, nor do I need you to be my secret lover. It's over between us, John."
"...Okay."
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