"Yes," John admitted, "To me, Cordy is the most important."
"What gives her the right to be so loved by you, yet I'm nothing to you?! I've been by your side for so many years, and I'm willing to forsake even my dignity for you. Why can't I compare to Cordy? Why am I inferior to her?!" Jessica yelled hysterically.
She did not understand it at all.
She did not understand why she lost.
"There need not be a reason for love. In fact, if I could state the reason why I love, that might not be love at all." Compared to Jessica's agitation, John was terrifyingly calm. "I'll just tell you one thing: I want no one else but Cordy in my entire life!"
"You want no one else but Cordy…" Jessica broke out into laughter.
Unbridled, wild laughter tinged with hopelessness.
"What if I told you that I'll never let you and Cordy be together your entire life?"
"Loving someone doesn't mean possessing someone. Jessica, I can only say that your love is too selfish," John said coldly.
"Selfish? Yes, I am selfish! Since I was young, I must have whatever I like! You're no exception either!"
"So, let Dicky go and I'll die with you!" John cut to the chase.
"Hah." Jessica chuckled. "Do you think I'll be fooled so easily? Do you really think I trust you enough to let you save Dicky right under my nose with a few casual words?"
John clenched his fists and glared at Jessica with his cold, dark eyes.
Jessica stood unfazed. "John, I've been by your side for so many years. I know clearly what you care and don't care about. Don't think that you can fool me just like this. That's impossible!"
John clenched his fists tighter. "In that case, make your decision according to your presumptions!"
With that, John turned to leave.
He stopped in his tracks after taking two steps and said, "The moment I leave this place, it means that I've given up on Dicky. I don't care what choice you ultimately make, but I will choose to call the police."
"John Levine!" Jessica could not believe that John would be so cold-blooded as to not bother about his own son's life and death.
"If you dare to leave, Dicky will die right in front of you."
"The outcome will be the same whether I leave or not," John said calmly without any sign of emotion. "Just get it over with and don't prolong the agony. Dicky will just have to blame it on his wretched fate."
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