A Mysterious She-wolf novel Chapter 11

Kavi's POV

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I was standing on the seventeenth stair of a dark place. I can't see anything except the seventeen stairs that I ascended with minimal light from what seems like a door. I was smiling at something above the stairs. I could feel my lips moving but I can't hear anything.

It was like my soul was pushed out of my body and I was seeing me in the dream from some other person's point of view. Suddenly I felt my hair on the back of neck raising and a cold shiver ran down my spine. I felt a dark shadow engulfing my physical form and I felt something soft and wet on my forehead. My physical form was being kissed by that dark shadow! But what was that surrounding me?

Then I heard a faint whisper of 'I have been waiting for you, Cupcake' from the one who was hugging me.

The other me who was watching the scene want to get out of the place as I was struggling to breathe.

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I sat up with drenched clothing from my sweat.

Same dream!

I was having this same dream on my every birthday nights as long as I could remember. The difference is I would be in my own appearance of that age and I would be standing on the stair which was equal to my age. My Grandpa told it might be some deep illusion embedded in my heart during my childhood. But it was haunting me exactly on my birthdays?

I shrugged it off and noticed the time blinking 04.45 AM. I freshened up and went to my mini gym room to spend the remaining time until hitting the training ground. I reached the training ground and everyone wished me. I felt overwhelmed with their showing of love. I felt very guilty to see Mithun as I learnt that I was the reason his son wasn't in this world anymore. I killed someone's mate. I hesitantly went to him.

"Mithun, can I talk to you alone for a minute?"

He looked in confusion but agreed anyway. I took a few deep breaths to calm myself.

"I want to apologise to you, Mithun."

I looked up at his face and his face was in a deep frown.

"I.. I was the reason.. for.. for your son's..."

I bowed my head down as tears stared flow as I couldn't bear the weight of his loss and it was as if I was experiencing the whole thing. I felt his hand on my shoulder giving a slight pressure.

"I know. My son told me that he was visiting a beautiful pup daily at the top of the mountain. Never blame yourself for what happened that day. Nobody knows that rogues were gonna attack that day. You were injected with silver and you were so young. It's his fate. Don't feel guilty about it. He used to stay at my sister's home at our neighbouring pack without transfer. And brothers tend to help each other. No one is to blame on that incident. So leave the past and concentrate on your future. Don't spoil your day, dear."

He spoke softly and lightly stroked my hair affectionately. And I understand why I could mind link him as he was part of this pack but stayed at another place.

"Why aren't you angry with me? I don't deserve your kindness, Mithun. I kil.."

I broke down but he shut me off with his hand before I could complete the sentence. I composed myself and looked up at him.

"What's his full name? He has sacrificed his life for me but I didn't even know his name."

I muttered the last part.

"Amudhan!"

He said with a sad smile. I internally muttered his name again and again much to my wolf's dismay as she knew even though he was not alive I have my feelings for him.

I washed my face and went back to the training ground. Mithun asked me to teach the younger teens some defending moves in human form. After an hour of teaching them, I wanted to run and got permission from Mithun and went for a run in human form. A black wolf, a red wolf and a dark brown wolf joined me. I smelled exactly who they are. The black one is Dhaya, the red wolf is Logan and the dark brown one is Mukilan. They were playing with each other and I wish I was in wolf form now. Wow, I got the company of future Alpha, future Beta and third in command. We ran a few rounds and I need to stop soon as I was supposed to act like a human. I registered the faces in patrol and also the space between each wolf as I have to sneak this weekend for my fighting tournament. How can I reveal myself as 'Black mask' without revealing my wolf? So I need to lie to Sezhiyan.

When I come back, I saw Mithun embracing a she-wolf. She might be his mate which also means she is my teddy's mom. I walked up to them and I learnt her name is Rakshana. On learning who I am, her smile faded away and I knew I deserve that reaction. I excused myself and went to see Sezhiyan. I smelled him in his office and knocked there. His 'come in' was so angered. I slowly entered the room and found him behind his computer CPU and groaning at it.

"Are you okay, Alpha?"

I asked precautiously to not trigger his wolf just in case. He swiftly turned at my side and his features softened.

"Ah yes, dear. Suddenly this computer stopped working and I need an important file from this stupid box."

He hit it annoyingly. I smiled at his impatient behaviour and went near the CPU. It has a very mild smell of burnt wire. I asked him for a screwdriver and removed the side cover and checked all the wires. The wire connected from power cable outlet showed slight damage. I found there was an idle circuit wire plugged to the motherboard, so I cut the damaged part and connect it with the disconnected wire. I temporarily taped it but it needs to be soldered properly yet the best is to change the entire cable.

"Done for now but it is best to change the cable, Alpha"

I told him dusting my hands after fixing the side cover. I started the CPU and the monitor turned on. He sighed and smiled at me proudly.

"I thought you only knew the software side. But see you are proving my favourite girl has grown up a lot with lots of knowledge. And she has lots of tricks under her sleeves."

He told me with a big adoring grin. I smiled in reply. I think this could be the right moment.

"Alpha, I want to ask you about something..."

I dragged purposely to make him think I am hesitating.

"You can ask me anything, Kavi"

His aura was so calm

"After seeing me, did you guess who could it be? I mean I am not a perfect replica of anyone from my mother's family. Do you find any resemblance in me of him?"

I keenly watched his aura which tensed for a millisecond but soon his aura calmed. I knew he composed himself but I learnt he must have known something. As I expected, his reply came.

"Not that I could place anyone, dear. That was in past. Leave it as it was. That's good for everyone"

He told the last part looking distantly confirming my suspicion. I pursed my lips and nodded. But I am gonna dig that secret which you are trying bury deep inside you, Alpha. I promised internally and let him continue his work and went to the kitchen as my stomach was reminding me to feed. But I almost lost my appetite when I saw Rakshana and Pooja talking with Luna. Luna sensed me and told me to eat but I excused myself on seeing the other two was now glaring at me.

I walked back home and locked my door behind me and used my wolf speed to go to my room. I cleaned up myself and went to the kitchen to make something for me. I usually go to the clinic to see my mom but I didn't want to see her now. If she was so ashamed of me as her daughter I will show her who I could be even without my wolf. I will make her realise her mistake. It was one of the pack traditions to celebrate the birthday or anniversary of the pack member unless otherwise, the person had planned. So tonight I had a party to attend. Luna already organised everything and Inba aunt bought me a green knee length dress with three fourth sleeve. It was so girly but she strictly told me to wear that for the party. That afternoon, the boys took me to town and we watched a movie and had fun eating lots of junk foods.

At evening, I washed my hair and let it loose and removed my usual white gold stud and wore the matching earing bought by my aunt. I wore my lenses and checked the presence of my pendant. Yet I am not going to wear that heel tonight. So I opted for simple black flats and made my way towards pack house. Logan met me half way and he saved me from my awkward entry as I could just glue to him. I was never been to pack the party for the past five years. I locked my arm with him and ignored his teasing look. Ah! This is getting more awkward. Please save me Moon God! But much to my help, he stopped in the middle and started shouting loudly.

"Hey guys, listen here. The beautiful girl standing next to me is my cousin. And it's her birthday today. Why don't you guys make her feel home?"

I never in my life had so much desire to punch a person's face except the monster. But now I do. I tightened my grip of his arm but he easily removed my hand and left me to stand in the middle of smirking teens. The most disgusting fact is the room had the mixed smell of different food and the sweat covered wolves from endless dancing at the other corner of the hall. Thankfully they didn't allow drinks here. I prayed Moon god to save me from this awkwardness. My prayers got answered as I saw my uncle crossing the hall. So I clung on to him and left to the back yard. I let out a breath and sat at the stairs.