A Mysterious She-wolf novel Chapter 22

Kavi's POV

Can you be happy and sad at the same time?

Yes, here I am!

Logan and Surya have found their mates the day after the war and they were glued to each other. Madhu and Vibha were friends from childhood and they belong to Crimson Moon pack who happened to meet Logan and Surya in a pack festival. Madhu is Logan's mate; Vibha is Surya's mate. These two females were so sweet but possessive at the same time.

The females were too fast to apply for transfer. They met each other parents and everyone was so happy. My friend and little cousin had found their other half and they are going to live their life happily. Surya privately apologised for his earlier behaviour and also stated how he and his wolf was so much in love with Vibha and her wolf. But his wolf and he still feel protective of me and we feel bonded in some way. His mate understood about it without much drama but I could sense a hint of possessiveness in her eyes whenever Surya talk to me. I noticed Logan's orange scent mixed with strawberries and noticed his mark on Madhu's neck. The way they look at each other with so much love makes me very happy. Surya being new to this, he is taking their relationship slow.

And my mom was staying home as much as possible and she was trying to compensate all these years by giving more attention to me. But I asked her to behave normally after a day and she agreed. I can't act all the time being happy when deep down the mate bond was torturing me. Though her love makes me feel better for my sore mood caused by my mate.

Days were passing too quick but I had frozen without moving forward in my life. In two days, my mate getting engaged to Pooja and in three week time, they planned to get married. Even though I try to be strong, I couldn't keep myself together. I got a mail to be present at the council tomorrow. And as I planned I spoke with Sezhiyan before five days. I still remember the event clearly.

^ Flashback ^

After the trip with Dhaya, I finished my training and mind linked Sezhiyan that I want to meet him. He asked me to come to his office.

"What is that you want to talk to me, Kavi?"

He asked me with a frown and concern.

"Alpha, I knew your love for me. And I promised myself to tell you everything about me. But yesterday, I didn't disclose my complete detail. And I didn't want to keep any more secrecy from you but this is about my personal life. So I thought it was enough to tell you to avoid unnecessary conflicts. But I want you to keep this as a secret. Because I decided about my life and I want you to respect my decision."

He looked at me calculatively and extended his hand to promise. Our palms met and he promised to keep it as a secret and he won't even disclose it to his mate. I smiled in gratitude and pulled my moonstone pendant over my t-shirt.

"After my grand parent's death, that witch was so grateful for them to give their own lives to save her. So Zarina offered to give me whatever I want within her power. From the memories that Grandpa has given me, I found many males not respecting the value of their mates. My mom's mate raped her and another male whom she trusted had tried to take advantage over her, even while his mate was also alive.

I have noticed the mates rejecting each other for silly reasons. So I asked her to break the bond I have within me to my mate. She denied it and told she could not do some sinful thing like that. Then I asked her to give me something which would hide my bond and I could make my mate feel the bond if I didn't have that thing. She was conflicted and afraid as she didn't want to do the sin of separating the mates. However, she gave me this moonstone pendant and told that my mate wouldn't recognise me till this pendant was with me but a simple touch would make him recognise me and I should keep my physical distance with him.

Her idea is wolves won't keep distance after finding their mate, but she has no idea how stubborn I am. I found that the idea isn't bad. So I accepted this pendant from Zarina."

I paused on seeing him getting angry.

"Are you out of mind, Kavi. What kind of crazy game is this? First, remove that thing from you. Mates are blessings, Kavi. You shouldn't do this. Remove it, now."

He yelled at me. But I could see how much he was concerned about me. I smiled sadly at him.

"Remember the promise, Sezhiyan. My mate is in our pack. I met him before two years at a rogue tournament. He came there with our Logan. My wolf wanted him instantly and I felt our bond getting alive. But he didn't recognise me. I wanted to know about him. But things happened and I kept the secret within me. After the war, I decided to tell him everything and to apologise for keeping him away all these days. My unfortunate time, he was in a hurry. He decided to go for another she-wolf. Yeah, Akhilan is my mate. But he is no different from my mom's mate. So please don't tell anyone about it. Let's see what destiny has for me."

There was a lot of emotions from Sezhiyan. He inhaled a deep breath with shock at first when I said that my mate belongs to our pack. His eyes showed recognition when I described him. He looked at me in pure torture when I confirmed his doubt and compare him to my mom's mate.

"He had waited for you a very long time, Kavi. He had agreed on this arrangement only because of his mother's pressure. Tell him the truth, Kavi. I want you both to be happy."

He asked me almost in requesting tone. I nodded my head no.

"If he really wants to be with me, he would have made his parents understand how important his mate is for him, Sezhiyan. They are werewolves too. And they are mates. So they would understand if he stood stubborn. But he didn't. He didn't fight for me. He gave up so easily. I am too easy for him to give up."

I sighed and continued.

"If he could replace another she-wolf for his mate, how do I expect his loyalty to me? I can't trust him, Sezhiyan. His every action would make me suspect him. We can't live a normal life. It was rather better to live alone, Sezhiyan. All I want is a peaceful life. Please understand me. I knew you think of me as your daughter. Would you want your daughter to live a life with someone who didn't wait for his mate and had agreed to marry another she-wolf?"

I spoke without hiding any of my emotions. He sighed in frustration.

"You said you are feeling the bond alive. So you will feel when they mate. It's pure torture, Kavi. And you could never get the life that could be only possible with one's mate. I can't even imagine replacing Mithra with someone else. How are you going to live the rest of your life? How was your wolf reacting?"

He asked with concern.

"Yes! I will feel them. I need to see if it is possible to break our bond. Or I have to go somewhere else to stay. As you said I can't think of any other male. My wolf blocked me for a day. But she was always so supportive and understood the reality with maturity. But I knew she had a secret hope that her mate would come back to her. But the truth can't be denied!"

I said to him with an exhausted sigh. He nodded his head.

"I respect your decision, Kavi. But please reconsider it for me! All I want is a happy life for you. He is a good man. He would give you a great life."

I smiled at him and bid bye to him and walked out thinking whether is it even necessary to reconsider my decision. I wasn't watching my steps and almost ran into Akhilan. I was breathless and my wolf made me take as much as his scent possible. And it was doing so many chemical reactions in me.

"Sorry! I didn't see you coming!"

I tried to walk past him. But he stopped me blocking the way by extending his hand. He has a look of concern.

"Why are you walking like a dead person? I thought you would be back to cheerful Kavi after reuniting with your mom. But you are looking worse than before! Do you want anything?"

He asked me with a frown.

"You"

My mouth got its own brain and I said it before I could realise. I coughed hard covering as if I didn't complete the sentence.

"You didn't know anything about me! And I am happier than ever because I gained my mother's love again. You stop worrying about me and concentrate on your fiancee."

My mouth was bitter after speaking to him like that. I could tell he was about to deny my words from his body language but the screeching voice of Pooja interrupted us.