Abigail’s Second Life (Abigail and Sean) novel Chapter 572

Chapter 572 I Really Can't Accept It

Sean gazed at Abigail, feeling a heavy weight on his chest.

"Even if I were to accept you again and consider starting a family with you, I know that things can never go back to how they were," she said. "I have given you my deepest emotions, and I don't believe I have wronged you. It was you who ignored my true feelings during those three years. Now, you want to return to the past. Do you think that's possible?"

He apologized, "I'm truly sorry."

"I want to fully accept you, but I can't. Everyone thinks that I can think through, let go, and move forward from the wrongs that were done to me, but I can't understand why. I now realize that people are always entangled and filled with grudges. I keep thinking about the wrongs each of you did to me. If I didn’t care, that would be the real sign that I don't care about any of you." Abigail rarely opened up about her inner thoughts to Sean, but she felt it was necessary to clarify.

He watched her quietly, feeling like he was entering her heart for the first time.

"Just like I genuinely don't care about Old Mrs. Graham, so when I see her, I feel like she's just an ordinary stranger. I've even started to forget her past actions toward me. It's because I still care about all of you that I keep obsessing, keep recalling those unpleasant memories, and firmly hold them in my heart,” she said with a bitter smile. "I care deeply about everything. I'm not that generous."

Sean held Abigail's hand, his eyes slightly red. Then, he lowered his gaze and softly said, "I'm sorry, Honey. I was truly wrong."

She looked at him and smiled gently. "I really don't want to let go... I know Grandma was right, but I can't accept it. I don't know the solution, so I agonize over it."

Abigail often found herself lost in thought during late nights. If she hadn't cared for Sean, she might not have felt the pang of sadness seeing him risk his life for Luna. This incident became a turning point in their emotional conflict. It led her to give him another chance, seeking a reason to reconcile with him, to find peace from the pain of the past he had caused. Yet, despite these efforts, she found herself in inner conflict, still not having fully accepted him.

There were times when she wished he would experience the same pain she had endured—a desire she deeply despised in herself.

Up until today, Abigail realized that she had indeed accepted Sean, yet a part of her still held back. She hadn't completely moved on from the scars of their failed marriage. As long as he remained a part of her life, there lingered a fear of facing the same hurt once more.

“There might not be an easy fix because pain is not easily erased." He clasped her hand firmly. "But hearing what you've shared brings me joy. It's taught me the importance of being mindful not to hurt those who care for us. I now understand that if I'm fortunate enough to have you back, I need to remember the pain I've caused and tread carefully to avoid hurting you again in the future."

She was a little surprised by his words.

He looked at her with teary eyes and said again, "I'm sorry."

Abigail thought that he was right.

“Have you rested enough? If you have, let's go back then,” he said, even though he felt a mix of emotions after hearing her candid words.

“Almost,” she said. She felt much more at ease after sharing her feelings with him. She no longer had to dwell on these messy thoughts on her own.

Sean held Abigail's hand and helped her up. As they walked back, he said, "I'm genuinely grateful that you shared these things with me. It's helped me understand my mistakes, and I see that you haven't forgiven me yet."

She turned her head to look at him. "Sean."

"Yes?" He instinctively looked at her.

"Seeing you return to me brings me great joy, she expressed, a serene smile dancing in her eyes. It signified her success, having not fallen short of her expectations.