After Reborn, I Become a Billionaire novel Chapter 445

Chapter 445 To Experience and Feel

Susan lay in bed, tossing and turning, but could not fall asleep.
Her mind was full of the picture of Manuel and the half-naked Martina being together.
She can't get them out of her head. She thought it was difficult for Manuel to accept other women. After all, he refused all of the wooers in high school. Even after so many years abroad, with a lot of blonde beauty after him, he had still been single, and she thought maybe he loved her.
Now it seemed that she was worrying too much. No one would love a person without regrets until death. And she did not want him to do so. No matter how determined she was about the divorce, she still felt a little guilty. When she thought about it, it was probably because she had failed to protect their child. This would probably be her biggest regret for the rest of her life. She wondered how long it will take her to let go.
Susan couldn't fall asleep. So she sat up, picked up the phone, and called Hannah. It seemed to be an instinct. No matter what she encountered, she would habitually go to Hannah.
Fortunately, even though it was late at night, Hannah still answered her call.
"Don't you sleep at this time?" Hannah got through the phone. Her words were with blame, but Susan could catch more care.
"I can't sleep."
"You can't sleep? That's new." Hannah sat up and tried to wake herself up.
Susan was not the kind of person who completely disregard the feelings of others. There had to be a reason for her to call her late at night. Hannah knew her well.
"I'm not heartless."
Hannah smiled and asked, "Tell me, what's keeping you up?"
"I don't know."
"Be honest." Hannah sounded serious.
Susan pursed her lips. She knew that nothing could be kept from Hannah.
She said bluntly, "I got divorced today."
"Do you regret it?"
"No," Susan retorted, "I thought after that, I should take away the things I put in his house."
"He did not let you take your stuff?"
"No." Susan said angrily, "Just hear me out!"
"Okay, go ahead."
"Then I asked Henry to accompany me to pack my stuff. He didn't go upstairs. I was afraid of seeing that house will make him feel tense, so I went upstairs alone. I didn't knock on the door or think about what it was like inside the room. I just pressed the code and went in. Do you know what I saw?"
"Didn't you want me to let you finish?" Hannah asked.
Susan rolled her eyes.
"I saw Martina and him in the living room. She was half-naked and on top of him. And they seemed to..." Susan continued.
"So you're jealous?" Hannah raised her eyebrows.
"No, I am not. What are you talking about? I'm just sharing it with you because it was shocking, and I'm gossiping about it with you." Susan said with excitement.
When she got excited, that meant she was caught short. Hannah knew it, but she did not say that. She didn't want to irritate Susan.
Since Susan decided to divorce and Manuel also gave her what she wanted, there was no need to bring them together again.
Hannah said, "Susan, I've told you before, it's easy to get bitterly disappointed when it comes to feelings. Once someone was hurt and decided to let go, they will become strangers. Manuel is that kind of person, after so many years, you should be clear about that. He doesn't talk much and keeps everything to himself, but he knows what he wants and he doesn't let his life get messy. He's disciplined."
Susan pursed her lips. She knew he was a restrained man.
"Once he thinks something through, once he chooses to let go, he would do that for real. To put it bluntly, by choosing to divorce you, he has chosen to end his affection for you. The fact that he is now willing to let other women approach him is enough to show that he has moved on from you and started to give himself a chance to start over," Hannah said, "Susan, marriage and feelings are something one needs to experience and feel in person. No matter what I have said, in the end, it is you who experiences and feels. If you feel unhappy, you have to bear it yourself. Because Manuel has left your world."
"I didn't regret it." Susan retorted stubbornly.
Probably, she didn't allow herself to think about the things she might regret. She wouldn't dwell on them. She still thought the man she loved was always Henry, not Manuel. Otherwise, why did she still fall in love with Henry without hesitation after she met Manuel first? She loved Henry more, Susan told herself.
This might be one's vanity. It made her feel sick and irritable that Manuel had sex with Martina so soon.
"So just forget it. It's late. Have some rest. I have to work tomorrow." Hannah intended to finish the call.
"Same here, I gotta work tomorrow too," Susan said.
"Did you get over it?"
"No, I don't. It's my dad. I don't get a penny if I don't work. I have no choice." Susan got angry at the thought of her father.
"Your father is good to you, you will see."
"I don't want to." Susan huffed.
In fact, she knew her father's love for her, but she couldn't let go of the past.
"Well, just try to get some sleep."
"Okay, bye." Susan nodded. She hung up the phone but was still awake.
Tucking herself, she forced herself to sleep.
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On the other side, Hannah couldn't sleep as well.
Susan woke her up in the middle of the night and it was such torture. She looked at the time and hesitated to call Oscar, who answered the phone quickly.
No matter when she called him, he was always quick to pick up, always in less than three seconds. It was nothing like this once or twice. However, in the long run, it became a kind of happiness for her.