Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 135

A freezing, wet, and hard surface is underneath me. This isn’t like the soft mattress I slept on a couple of hours ago. I want to continue sleeping for a little while, but it’s unbearable. I try to shift, hoping I will get comfortable, but it doesn’t work. Small, hard things press into my skin, increasing my discomfort.

Giving up, I reluctantly open my eyes. Is a little bit more of sleep too much to ask for?

The moment my eyes are open, I jolt upward. This isn’t my fucking bedroom? Where the hell am I?

I scan the area in confusion. The sight of trees shrouded in fog greets me. It’s early in the morning. Maybe around six in the morning, but I couldn’t be sure.

I know that I am still in pack lands because I can sense the patrolling team. I just don’t know which part of the forest I am in.

The chilly morning wind blows, making me shiver at its coldness. It’s only then that I realize I am butt naked.

On unsteady legs, I get up, my mind swirling in confusion. I clearly remember going to sleep right next to Aspen after our talk, so what the hell am I doing here?

I rack my brain trying to find the hidden answers, but I come up empty. I have no memory of what happened or how I got here in the first place.

My heart starts racing at the possibilities. Did I sleepwalk here? But I don’t have a history of sleepwalking, and I doubt it starts suddenly out of nowhere. That also doesn't explain why I am naked in the first place.

I am a bit disoriented as I try to get my bearing. I mean, it’s not every day you go to sleep and wake up naked in the forest.

I stumble as I begin to walk while trying to get my stupid brain to function. Sniffing the air, I smell the scent of the pack and use it as my beacon. I could use my teleportation power, but I am afraid that, with how disoriented I am, I’ll end up somewhere else. It is better to avoid it.

“Nyx?” I call her, but she doesn’t respond.

She’s been MIA since yesterday. I tried getting in touch with her after Raven’s revelation, but she wouldn’t answer me. Even when I did more training in the afternoon, she was still not present.

I was beginning to get worried. She does do a disappearing act once in a while, but usually she tells me when she wants time away from me.

“Nyx,” I call again desperately. “Come one, I really need you.”

Once again, I get no answer, which just frustrates me more. I’m confused and scared, and for some weird reason, I feel like crying.

I feel like a failure. Like I failed someone or some people. My heart feels heavy with feelings I can’t describe. I was okay yesterday. Sure, I was stressed and worn out, but that was the extent of it. I didn’t feel like my heart was weighed down like it was right now.

The feeling of helplessness and hopelessness engulfs me. Washing over me. Drowning me in its tight and unwanted embrace.

What the hell is happening to me? Why the fuck do I feel this way?