Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 91

Trigger Warning: The following chapter contains torture scenes.

Alec

Have you ever felt like you’ve been hit by a truck? That’s how I fucking felt right now when the bastard in front of me opened his mouth and spoke.

I’ve always wanted the truth about that night. I have been searching for it for years. I wanted confirmation. Confirmation that Sadie was truly a bitch. That she was a conniving, backstabbing, desperate bitch. Well, I’ve finally gotten the truth, but it isn’t what I was looking for. It isn’t anything like I’d thought it would be.

My heart and chest constrict painfully as his words ring over and over in my head like a broken fucking record. What am I supposed to do now? How the fuck am I supposed to move on from this?

I was righteous in my anger three years ago, because I thought I was the victim. I held on to that righteousness for three fucking years thinking that I was the victim. I held on to my bitterness and anger and all for what? Only to find out that my arrogant ass was wrong the entire fucking time.

“Is the Goddess punishing us?” Knox ask softly, anguish in his voice. The last time he sounded this defeated was when Lola rejected us.

“Probably,” I answer, feeling like the weight of the world was on my fucking shoulders.

And it was true. The goddess was probably punishing us. Punishing us for condemning and hurting an innocent person.

Making Sadie our mate was the biggest ‘fuck you’ I’ve ever seen. It’s like she was giving Sadie back the power I took from her when I accused her of something she didn’t do.

Fuck! How could I have messed up so fucking badly? How did I not realize that she was innocent this whole time?

I run my hands down my face, trying to wipe away the guilt that was starting to rear its ugly head.

I’ve always prided myself on being a fair person. A fair leader. I prided myself on serving the right judgment and giving those who deserve it punishment, yet here I was and, for the first time in my entire fucking life, I hurt an innocent person.

My sins keep pilling up, the more I think of them and the weight of them all threatens to drown me.

I thought I knew pain, but it’s nothing compared to what you feel when you realize that you hurt the woman who was always meant to be your mate.

Calvin’s screams shatter my bubble of guilt and terror, bringing me back to reality.

I stare numbly and coldly as Sadie twists the knife that was lodged in Calvin’s side.