#Chapter 311 – Cora at Home
Cora
When I wake up it’s almost eight at night and I groan, realizing that my sleep schedule is
completely wrecked. I’m reminded, suddenly, of my years as a medical resident when this sort of thing was normal – sleeping all day, taking night shifts, living moment to moment rather than a steady, scheduled life.
And quite frankly, right now? That sounds really wonderful, compared against a whole night of empty hours in which I have nothing to do but… think.
Think about what I’m doing in my life, think about my career which has gone in a really weird direction, think about my relationship…s.
About a certain kiss in the woods.
About a sweet doctor who, apparently, wants to build a life with me.
I sigh and sit up, looking around at my sterile little apartment. I never really decorated, I realize as
I look around at the grey and beige furniture, the simple linens, the charmless curtains. Everything is functional and high quality but none of it is… me?
Or is it?
I frown at my space, thinking of Ella’s sweet home that – even though Sinclair picked out most of the furniture before she moved in – still sings Ella Ella Ella in every corner. It’s warm and sweet
and comfortable. What does my space say about me?
I mean, I’m an orphan – I never had any possessions or any control over the environments in
which I lived, so where would I have learned to decorate? I never had a mother to show me how
So where did Ella…
I groan, rolling my eyes at myself, sick, again, of being jealous of my sister.
I love her so, so much – and I’m so happy she has what she wants in her life. But sometimes she’s just so….perfect. That it makes me realize how unhappy I am, when I stand next to her.
I roll over, reaching for my phone, seeking some kind of distraction from these disquieting- thoughts. But when I pick it up the first thing I see is one of those relationships I’m trying to avoid leaving me an a*sortment of messages. I sigh and click open my message app.
Hank: Hey, Cora – how did the baptism go? Dinner later?
Hank: Cora? You okay?
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Hank: Hey, send me a text when you get up – I know you were up all night but I’m worried that I
haven’t heard from you.
Sighing, I swipe the messages away and click through the rest of my phone, trying, determinedly,
to not let it bother me that there’s nothing at all from Roger. Not a peep. As I take a deep breath and check my email, another message from Hank pops up.
Hank: Hey, are you home? I’m… I mean, this is a little pathetic, but I’m outside. Can you let me in? I
your apartment door…
My heart twinges a little bit when I see that. Hank. He’s being so sweet and I’m…well, I’m not being fair to him, am I?
Ella’s right. I’m holding a space for Roger, one he doesn’t even want – despite what might have pa*sed between us last night, it doesn’t change anything. And there’s a man standing outside my door with mooshoo pork, dying to love me.
God, what’s wrong with me? Quickly, I jump out of my bed and dash for the front door of my apartment.
As we sit on the house, the Chinese spread out around us on the coffee table, eating right out of the containers with the supplied chopsticks, Hank tells me all about his day. He held down the fort at the little free clinic we both work at, seeing both prospective mothers as well as general ailments from humans and wolves who currently don’t have access to their regular healthcare providers.
It was, apparently, a busy day with some tricky cases. I watch Hank closely as he tells me his story, my eyes flicking over his handsome, serious face – his thick brown hair – his strong, capable hands-
And I feel something twist in my stomach as I watch him, something that makes me…well, makes- me want to jump across the couch and kiss him…
“Hmm?” I ask, shaking myself and forcing myself to listen to his words. Then, I grimace a little. I’m sorry, Hank,” I say, giving him an apologetic look. “I got….lost in my thoughts a little bit. Forgive me. Can you start again?”
“It’s okay,” he responds, giving me a little wink and reaching out to grab my hand, squeezing it a bit before sitting back. “I was just curious if you think Ella would want to be more involved in the clinic.”
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The last couple of chapters have gotten sloppy, confusing her and him for she/her Sinclair is not a her. Isabel has changed her name to Elizabeth too. Making it hard to read. I’m loving this book, but I hope it goes back to its previous high standard!...