Alpha Loren novel Chapter 25

October 16th

During breakfast, Leo was still very quiet.

It unsettled me.

"You're still thinking about what Antonio and Blair said, aren't you?" I asked.

"How long are you going to make me wait?" he asked leaning back and sighing.

I shrugged.

"And why?" he questioned, "So you don't want to please me because I'm a 'bad' person. Are you nervous about losing your virginity too?"

I swallowed.

"It's normal to be nervous because it's your first time and that won't change whether we do it now or in ten years," he said. "But it's not just the sex you're nervous about."

I looked down at my plate.

"It makes it real, doesn't it?" he asked.

I didn't move.

"Right now we haven't finished the mating process. We have a connection but it's not solidified yet. But as soon as you sleep with me you are well and truly my mate. No way out. That scares you, doesn't it?"

I shrugged.

"The thought of being eternally bound to you, Alpha Loren, is unsettling," I replied. "I can't imagine loving you...you're dark and immoral...and what's a life and partnership without love?"

"You think that not completing the mating process means you have an escape route?" he asked.

He then looked at me with a raised eyebrows and stony expression.

"Because it doesn't. Whether you like it or not, you are stuck with me so you might as well enjoy your time here," he said. 

"Enjoy my time here?" I asked, "I can't just stand by and support you as your Luna as you kill people."

He clenched his jaw.

"So I will not become your Luna until you become someone I can support.  I am not going to give in, Leonardo. If you ever want that sex or that baby, you will make an effort to be a good person."

He let out a short laugh, "You're gonna bribe me into doing what you want? You know, my father is right. You are messing me around."

"I'm doing what is right," I said, "I'm fighting the evil in you."

"You're defying nature," he replied.

"Well you said it yourself...I'm unconventional."

I then folded my arms and glared at him.

"But your wolf isn't," he said, glaring straight back, "I don't know if it was growing up a rogue, being raised by Nicolos Jones or living in the human world that messed you up but your wolf will never be able to resist her mate. And that is your weakness."

"Fuck you," I growled.

"Yes, please do."

"If you are so desperate for sex why don't you just sleep around again?! It's not like you saved yourself for your mate anyway!" I shouted getting to my feet.

"I was a virgin at 17 too."

"So its okay for you but if it was me, you would have murdered someone," I spat.

"You can murder every girl I've ever slept with if you like," he said. "But you wouldn't."

"I'd be there for years," I replied beginning to walk away.

"You're really gonna get upset that I'm not a virgin?"

"How would you like it if I went out tonight and slept with another man?" I said pulling my hand out of his hand and marching to the door.

"You would never do that," Leo growled coming closer. 

"What makes you so sure?" I asked as he pushed me up against the wall.

"Because you know I would kill them without a second thought and you don't want that blood on your hands. There's another one of your weaknesses, Ella. Remorse."

I clenched my teeth together and shoved his chest.

In response, he grabbed my wrist and pinned them to the wall.

"I'm going to the Southern territory tonight on business," he said, "When I get home in two days, we will mate."

He then slowly took his hands off me and stepped back before he turned on his heel and walked out of the kitchen, leaving my slightly shake and alone.

Four hours later at 3:00 pm, Mateo arrived and Leo left pretty much without saying a word.

"What's got his knickers in a twist?"Mateo asked.

"He wants to mate, I don't," I said.

"Why not?" He said getting a carton of orange juice out the fridge, "He's your mate, he's attractive, he's-"

"Because he's Leonardo Loren and I have more respect for myself than to just let such a bad man have me."

Mateo nodded, "Are you sure you're not overthinking it? It's just sex."

I shrugged, "Just sex with a serial killer who I consequentially become the Luna of and potentially get pregnant with his kid too."

"Well, I know my brother. He will not pin you down and force you. Just say no."

"The trouble is..." I said with a grimace, "He has a way of um..."

"Of what?" Mateo asked, turning to me and examining my expression.

"Seduction," I said, "He can make my wolf crave him."

"Oh God," Mateo cringed, "I didn't need to know."

"Well the point is, when he gets home in a couple of days and he wants sex, I'm worried my wolf won't resist him," I said, "And she'll betray the human side of me."

"I see," Mateo said.

"It's a conundrum isn't it?" I said as he found some leftover pancakes in the fridge, "Do they not feed you at the Loren household?"

"When you're used to living with 4 brothers you learn to take whatever you can get," He said getting some chocolate sauce to put on the pancakes. "And Leo always has great food in his fridge. Do you want anything to eat?" Mateo asked.

"I just ate," I said causing him to stare at me blankly.

"And?..." He said.

"I'm not hungry," I replied.

"Suit yourself," He chirped whilst walking up to the TV with a bag of popcorn. "Let's watch a movie to take your mind off you're issue. What does Leo has in this mystery box of DVDs then...Horror, horror,horror, horror...a comedy?...no wait it's a horror, another horror, yet another horror and finally some romantic high school chick flick...why the fuck does he have this?" He said shocked.

"Maybe he has a soft spot?" I laughed.

"Property of Lia Loren..." He said reading a label on the back of the DVD. "Right...that makes more sense." He said laughing. "So what do you wanna watch?"

"I normally would never choose horror but since the only other option is...My Senior Prince...I don't think we really have a choice," I said. 

"Okay, so which horror movie?" Mateo asked. "I would recommend The Axe Massacre or Alone in the Woods."

"They both sound equally terrifying so whichever one you want," I said.

"Axe massacre it is then," He decided putting the DVD in the player. "Are you sure you want to watch this?"

"What's the worst that can happen?" I asked.

"You have a nightmare and then Leo finds out I let you watch an horror movie and he massacres me with an axe."

"I'm not that much of a chicken! I'm not going to have a nightmare!" I said not even believing myself.

"Alright but if anyone asks it was your idea."

An hour later, my head was burrowed into Mateo's shoulder and I had my eyes squeezed shut.

"What's the point of watching a film if you are going to shut your eyes?" Mateo asked. I cautiously opened them only to see someones decapitated head fall onto someone else's windscreen.

"SHIT!" I screamed. "I'm kind of wishing we watched My Senior Prince now!" I said as another head got ran over but the car.

When the film finished I was shaking from fear. Mateo had put his arm around me a bit when things got really scary but never anything to touchy touchy. I guess he was scared Leo would suddenly pop his head through the door or something.

"Never. Again," I said causing Mateo to laugh.

That night, I was still shaken by the movie. I shuddered as I walked past the back door and quickly closed the curtains.

"There's no one out there. Chill," Mateo laughed.

"There might be," I said, "Logan Wilson or some psycho like that."

"Logan that crazy dude that Leo killed the other night?" Mateo asked.

I turned in shock to look at Mateo.

"Leo killed him!?" I exclaimed.

So that's where he went when we were in Kellington...

"Was I not meant to say that?" Mateo said looking a bit guilty. "I'm sorry I thought you knew. I didn't mean to upset you."

"I'm not really upset he was an absolute twat I'm just surprised that he's actually dead and that Leo didn't tell me..." I said.

"Anyway now we have established there is no way Alpha Logan Wilson could possibly break into this house are you gonna get some sleep? It's midnight."

I looked towards the staircase. It was dark up there and I shuddered.

"Can you walk me to my room?" I asked.

He rolled his eyes, "Come on you baby."

I made it to the bedroom safely and got into bed quite quickly and tried to get to sleep quickly. I didn't want to dwell on the thought of the horror movie or Logan. I kind of me wanted Leo to cuddle and comfort me because that film was fucking scary. But he also killed Logan and I don't know how I feel about that yet.

October 17th

I woke up cold again and found myself wishing for Leo to be beside me. He was always warm and snuggling into him this morning after what was a terrible night sleep would be a blessing.

Later on in the morning, Mateo took me on a run out into the forest.

The sun was glorious as it filtered through the spindly autumn branches and although Mateo was right beside me I still felt the freest I had since I met Leo. 

We soon got to a lake that glistened and sparkled in the most beautiful blue as the morning is lifted over it.