Alpha's Blind Luna novel Chapter 104

We didn’t say anything else for a while. My eyes closed and I rested my cheek on her head, reveling in the dance that were the sparks between us. Goddess, comparing me to Logan was a knife that continued to dig further into my heart. Rydere had been right and deep down I knew it. I just couldn’t stop hating myself. For what I did. For how weak I was. Everything I did to her.

“Hector, I never hated you. Not once. Even when you left. I felt you struggling because you never brought your walls up when you were with me.” Auri nuzzled further into my chest. “But can you stop hating yourself? Can you forgive yourself? Can you move on?”

I lifted my cheek from her head and pressed my lips back down. “I don’t know, Auri. I hate…”

She shook her head against me, cutting me off. “No. Stop hating. I don’t regret it. If I had to do it over again, Hector…if the Moon Goddess sent me back in time right before I swapped places with Ezekiel, knowing the outcome, I would do it all again.”

Auri stepped back and immediately I missed her. Her eyes found mine and could see the pain and anger that I couldn’t feel through our bond. “If you can’t come up that conclusion either, then tomorrow you and Morgan can leave. I don’t need you. I don’t need someone who regrets being my mate. Regrets all the time we had together.”

“I don’t…!”

“But you do. You hate it. You hate everything about it.” She stepped back a couple more steps as I tried to reach out to her. “The twins, make sure to spend some time with them. You can…put them to bed if you want. Osiris is the eldest. His nickname is Sir cause he’s the thinker and planner. Bast is the fighter. She’s strong and she protects her brother. The two of them will be a force together.”

She started to turn but I grabbed her wrist. Auri froze as my hand held hers. “You named them after Egyptian gods?”

Chuckling, she nodded. “Your father came over from Egypt right? He took your mom’s name when they mated. I thought…”

“Thank you, Auri. It feels like…you’ve honored my Dad. After what I did…you still…”

Auri just nodded. She tore out of my grip and I watched her head into the house. “It is 8:30 p.m. and all of you guys better be in bed with your teeth brushed before I get up there or you know the consequences.”

Suddenly, there was a rush of movement and squealing in the house. It brought a smile to my face. Turning, I grabbed my duffle out of the car and headed in. Morgan was sitting in the parlor reading a newspaper with a steaming mug in his hand. Auri was loudly and slowly making her way up the stairs. Allowing time for everyone to brush and get to bed. I headed up the stairs after her.

“The twins room is the third on the right.”

Auri turned to the first door and knocked. Kids thundered through the hallway and into their rooms, slamming the doors. I tried to keep from laughing but Rydere was chuckling.

'She keeps a tight ship.'

I nodded. 'Has to for having nine kids and one of her.'

I opened up the door and peaked in. Osiris and Bast had a single bed they were sharing. There was enough room for two but as I peered in, they were curled up next to each other. A smile came to my face as I realized they probably chose to sleep in the same bed like Reagan and Rowan. I wondered if they begged Auri when they switched to their little toddler bed like Reagan and Rowan had. A pain shot through my lungs, every time I took a breath. I had been there for Vale and Ezekiel’s pups but all the while, my own pups were growing up without a father.

Pulling up the blankets, I covered their little bodies and sat at the edge of the bed. Osiris shifted and his eyes opened to look at me.

“You’re our dad, right?”

My eyes widened but Rydere just sighed. 'Wolves know their family, Hector. Don’t be so surprised. You’re the only one with your head up your ass.'

I nodded. “I am. I’m sorry I wasn’t around.”

“We had Mommy. She missed you though.” Bast didn’t open her eyes but she answered as she shifted her position. “Don’t hurt Mommy.”

I smiled and brushed some hair out of their faces as they curled up in the bed, Auri sticking to the tradition of my family by not cutting their hair. “I’m going to try not to. Goodnight you two.” Standing up, I walked over to the door and turned out the light. A night light was shining in the far corner, making it look like stars were filling the room.

Osiris looked me for a moment before closing his eyes. “We are a family. All of us. You can’t just accept us and not them.”

My body froze for a second before shutting the door behind me. Auri was making her way into the last room in the hallways and I headed down the stairs. Sitting on the couch, Morgan was still reading through the paper. Rubbing my face with my hands, suddenly I felt my age. Not body-wise but mentally.

“A lot to take in?”

I chuckled at Morgan. “You’re an ass for doing this. A complete asshat.”

Morgan laughed and turned the page. “I’ve been called worse by people closer. You needed to see her and she had the answers you wanted. Right?”

Sighing, I nodded. “Yeah. She did. But at the same time…there is so much more here. How am I supposed to take this all in? Did you know…the twins…?”