Alpha's Regret After She Kneels novel Chapter 42

I hated me for days; the synchronicity Siena and had shared during the competition,

Every time I closed my eyes, I could see her moving beside me–luid, instinctual, perfect.

We had moved as one.

My wolf hadn’t felt that aligned with another since since before everything fell apart. It was a feeling I’d tried to bury, but it refused to stay dead.

It didn’t make sense.

The mark on Lila–the one that should have bound us completely–should’ve erased all traces of Siena from my senses. But it hadn’t. I could still feel her, a phantom presence under my skin, lingering like a memory I couldn’t escape.

Horace was restless, pacing beneath my surface, his unease bleeding into my thoughts.

“She’s not yours.“I reminded him. “Lila is”

But he wasn’t convinced.

Neither was 1.

During the leadership council meeting, that unease only grew. The room was filled with Alphas from neighboring packs, each with their own opinions about Windhowl’s performance.

Some had been impressed, but others–like Alpha Brenner–had been less generous

“Unconventional,” he sneered, his voice dripping with disdain. “That’s a kind way of putting it. Siena’s “army of cripples should’ve been an embarrassment, but somehow, they pulled off a win. Luck, no doubt–or cheating”

My teeth clenched, as I forced my expression to remain neutral. But Horace growled, low and dangerous.

“The Luna’s approach was unconventional but effective,” I stated, my tone cold, cutting through the murmur of agreement around the table.

Silence fell

Zion’s gaze snapped to me, an eyebrow raised in surprise. His lips curled into a knowing smile, but he said nothing. Brenner blinked, clearly not expecting me to defend her

“Effective, Brenner repeated, almost mockingly. “Is that what we’re calling it now?”

“Results don’t lie,” I replied, my voice quieter now, but no less firm. “Windhowl proved their worth. Dismiss them at your own risk.”

I could feel the weight of Zion’s eyes on me. He was watching–always watching. But I ignored him.

Why did I speak up?

I shouldn’t have.

The words had come too easily, but Brenner wouldn’t be silenced.

“Your Majsyesty-

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Chapter 42

“Enough! Brenner, We’ve discussed this long enough.” I growled. If you can do better against Sienna, then by all means. It is not my concern! The feast awaits in the dining hall. Go, eat, gather your strength. You will need all of it.”

His eyes lingered on me briefly before he turned away.

expression

Now I stand at the edge of the dining hall, watching Siena. She sits with her warriors, deep in conversation, her animated as she speaks. Jared leans in, his weathered face cracking into a rare smile. Marla nods along, her eyes alight with respect. Even Alec, ever stoic, listens intently

They weren’t just following her.

They believed in her.

A pang I couldn’t name twisted in my chest.

Had she always been this capable?

Memories surfaced unbidden–Siena, newly mated, offering quiet suggestions during strategy meetings. I’d dismissed her then, too blinded by pride to see what was right in front of me.

I’d wanted a Luna who would stand beside me, but I’d never given her the chance to be that.

The thought unsettled me more than I cared to admit.

“You’re distracted,” a familiar voice purred.

I barely registered Lila’s approach until she was draping herself across my lap, her touch possessive, her scent sweet as ever. Her fingers trailed along my jaw, drawing my focus back to her.

“Thinking about the competition,” I murmured, the lie slipping easily from my lips.

“You’re thinking of your Luna, which you should be!” Horace growled in protest, but I silenced him, shoving the unease deeper,

Lila’s lips brushed against my neck, her touch light but deliberate. “Mmm, well,” she murmured, her voice laced with seductive promise. “Maybe I can help you forget”

I forced a smile, running my hand down her back as she pressed closer. I should have been content. This was what I chosen–what I was supposed to want. But even as her lips found mine, I felt nothing.

And then, just beyond the corner of my eye, I saw her.

Siena

I’d

She stood across the room, her expression carefully neutral. But for a split second–just a moment–1 saw it. The flash of pain in her eyes before her mask slipped firmly into place.

It hit me harder than I expected, a sharp stab to the chest. Guilt. That’s what it was–raw and undeniable.

Why did it feel so damn wrong? She is the one who betrayed me, took advantage with taht wrietch of a father for more years tahn I cared to admit.

Lila shifted in my lap, pulling me back with all her might, to the present.

1 focused on her, on the woman who was supposed to be my future. But my thoughts kept drifting–to Siena, to the strength in her stance, to the fire that had never truly dimmed in her eyes.

Why can’t I let her go?

Chapter 42

Days of this competition passed, but the unease only grew. I could not escape her influence.

Siena was everywhere.

In the council meetings where her strategies were discussed–even the Alphas who had doubted her were now grudgingly admitting that her unorthodox methods had yielded undeniable results.

How could that be?

In training sessions where Windhowl’s warriors moved with newfound purpose, their confidence restored, their loyalty to her unshakable, the elders looked upon me as the fool. Did they know? Did they suspect that I had been too rash in my

dismissal?

And in my mind, where she lingered like a shadow, FOrvevr the victor and I hated it. Worse, I loathed her for it.

Zion noticed, of course.

He always did.

“You’re quiet tonight,” Zion murmurs, sliding onto the bench beside me. Around us, the feast roars with laughter and clinking cups. Warriors pass plates heaped with venison and berries. The mead flows freely.

“Just… tired,” I reply, pushing meat around my plate.

Zion snorts, “I doubt that very much.”

my untouched food.

I stare at my

“You’re thinking about her. His voice drops lower, barely audible over the celebration.

My jaw clenches. “Drop it”

“Raiden,” he says sofily, but there’s no mockery in his tone this time. “You can lie to everyone else. But not to me.”

Silence stretches between us, heavy and suffocating despite the jubilant chaos surrounding us.

“It doesn’t matter, 1 finally mutter, watching Lila across the room as she laughs with the elders. “I chose Lila. It’s done.”

“Is it?” Zion’s gaze is piercing. He nods toward my white–knuckled grip on my cup. “Then why do you look like a man being torn apart from the inside?”