Chapter 21 Mixed feelings
“Gideon
“Can you give me directions? So I can come here.”
You won’t need that, I’ll get you a driver who will bring you here and wait for you.”
She looked out of the window for a second.
“Gideon, you don’t need to care about that. I can come here on my own. You spent enough on me.”
“Alice, first, I promised I would do that, and I don’t mind. Second, I won’t let you travel nor drive or wander alone in Los Angeles. That is dangerous.”
I instantly regretted my last sentence, because she looked at me with a sudden move.
I pretended I was focusing on driving instead of responding to her. What she told Lily about escaping was still in my mind. I didn’t want to let her go. It wasn’t just 1 wanted her to stay with me, but it was also about I would have broken if she would have ended up in Riccardo’s hands.
I knew I shouldn’t hold it back. I should have let that happen sooner than later, and maybe then it wouldn’t be so painful. I might have gotten over it sooner and in a few years 1 would forget her completely. But it didn’t matter how much I fought with my feelings inside me. I wasn’t able to let her go yet.
She slowly turned her head back to the window, and she took a deep breath.
It was lunchtime, and I decided, I’m going to take her out. My dad’s words were in my head. I had to show myself with her. I knew she ate healthy food. Actually, I preferred that too, so I drove to a restaurant where they only made healthy, organic food.
When I parked the car, she looked at me, surprised, and I could see a bit of fear in her eyes again. I wished I could tell her not to be afraid.
“It’s lunchtime. We are going to have lunch here.” I told her.
She just nodded sadly, undone her seatbelt, and opened the car door to get out. I took a deep breath, and I followed her. She just walked next to me, but I held her waist, pulling her closer to me. She nearly jumped when I touched her. From this close, I could smell her delicate scent, and that just made it harder for me.
a busy
place, but it wasn’t too busy this time, so we could choose a table. I chose one in the middle.
The restaurant was in a
We got
She didn
the menu cards. As I looked at her, I could see her hands were shaking. I forced myself to ignore that.
didn’t speak, just as usual, but I could also see that she had no appetite at all.
“Have you finished?” I asked her after I finished my dessert.
She nodded and wiped her mouth. I paid the bill, and I pulled her close again while we walked back to the car.
I drove back home, and as soon as we entered, she disappeared into her room. I sat down in the living room, and I held my head. It was a real torture for me too. I knew what could help me though, and even if I didn’t want that, I knew what I had to do.
I took my phone to check my messages. Gemma wrote a lot of things, probably she was drunk when she wrote them. I think spending a little time without her made me feel sorry for her again. I dialled her number, and she picked it up in two seconds.
“Gideon?”
“Have you calmed down?”
“Yes, I miss you so much.” She said that in a crying tone.”
“Meet me tonight in the club. I’ll be there at the usual time.”
“Okay.”
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Chapter 21 Mixed feelings
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