And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie) novel Chapter 178

Chapter 178: Shocking Confessions

Cassie.

I wasn't sure what I was doing or what was going to happen, but something about Silas being close to me was overwhelming. Something about him staring at me the way he did drove my heart crazy. He was supposed to simply be a friend... a guy I had met on campus who happened to help me when I needed it most with Lucas.

Yet, during the time we had spent together things had changed and every part of me screamed out to be with him.

I had done it once before... and I can't resist the urge to do it again.

The moment my lips crashed upon his, a fire burnt through me that was something I hadn't experienced before, and I knew he felt it too because the heat that poured off his body told me he wanted this as much as I did.

With the lift of his arms around my body, he pulled me up higher upon his chest, my legs wrapping around his waist as he held me to him. Our tongues battled for dominance as he walked me towards the sofa, sitting down with me straddling his lap.

As much as I wanted to continue, he broke the kiss, his hands in my hair as he stared at me with darting eyes that seemed to search for answers I didn't know how to explain.

‘'Cassie-" he breathed out shallowly trying to catch his breath, "what are we doing?"

As much as I wanted to answer him with something serious, I couldn't. A snort of laughter escaped me as I pressed my lips gently to him again. "Kissing... don't stop-"

Attempting to kiss him again, he stopped me once more, shaking his head. "Cassie, we can't, trust me I want to but we can’t."

“Why not?" I frowned in confusion at his refusal. "We have before-"

“Yes, but you're not the same as before, Cassie," he replied, cutting me off. 'You’re not just a celestial half-breed. You're the future of this realm, and you're meant to be paired with a mate from the games. Not someone like me."

There were no words I could say that would explain the heartache I felt, and I couldn't be angry because I could see in his own face the upset he felt in saying it. It was clear the games were more of a problem for me than I wanted to admit, and taking them seriously was something I was obviously going to have to do.

"Don't say that..." I muttered softly, shaking my head, his hands falling to my thighs as he cast his gaze to the far while breathing deeply. "Silas, don’t say that... I can't lose you.'

Snapping his attention back to me, he scoffed with a smile. 'You will never leave me. I may not be assigned to you as your guardian, but I will always be here for you. From now... until forever, Cassie. I just can’t be this that you want. You deserve to have your mate.”

I hated he was refusing what we both knew we wanted, but I understood how he thought he was helping to save me from doing something that could harm my reputation or anything else forthat matter. It was my life, and the fact I was being faced with all the royal bullshit and now Silas wanting to suddenly be respectable, was annoying.

Climbing off his lap, I groaned in frustration as I stood to my feet and straightened out my clothing. Here I was in the mood to have him ravish me and help me forget about all the bullshit I was going through, and instead, he stops and worries about how I would look to other people.

“Silas, I don't care what other people think about me. I will end up picking whoever I want for my mate, and that's just how it's going to be."

My comment didn't seem to sink in with him as a chuckle escaped his lips, and he stared at me with amusement in his eyes. 'You don't get to pick, Cassie. That's now how this works.'

Not understanding what he meant, I opened my mouth to speak but instead, hesitated as he stood to his feet. “What are you talking about?"

“I mean that you don't get to decide. Cassie, the games decide for you. You were told this, weren't you?" I couldn't lie and say I wasn't because, in a way, I sort of was. Sansa had tried to explain things to me, and I didn't really listen to certain things told to me at the gathering.

“I can change that, though..." I stuttered, shaking my head, "I won't let them tell me what I can or can't do."

Stepping forward, he shook his head with a sad glance. 'Unfortunately, you don't have the power to change that."

Hearing Silas's doubts about what I was able to do was disappointing. I would have thought that by now, he would have known I was able to do anything I set my mind to unless I was a fool to believe I could. 'I can do whatever I want too..."

Clenching my fists at my side, I refused to believe the man standing in front of me was saying the things he was. Only just a moment ago, we were making out, and I at least was hoping for more, and now he is standing in front of me with a nonchalant kind of glance as if what I'm saying is impossible.

I wished more than anything he wouldn't act the way he was because, besides Sansa, I really wanted him on my side. Yeah, he may have been willing to help me figure out the shit I was supposed to do... but, this was ridiculous everyone around me thought I would simply sit back and do as I was told.

"Cassie, let's not argue... this isn't what I came here for."