And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie) novel Chapter 223

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I'd had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away.

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn't trying to be complicated.

I wasn't trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it's like to have a piece of you torn away.

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw.

One moment you're trying to pretend you're okay, and the next you're sobbing.

"Hey, you," Kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn't seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

"You're back," I said with a small smile as I stood from where I sat and wrapped my arms around her, embracing her and her hug I feared would end.

"I told you I'd be back now. Where are my little babies at?"

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky I was to have them.

"Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours."

Kate smiled down at them but then turned to me, wrinkling her nose. "I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy's name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?"

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.