Bad Love: An Alpha's Regret (Leah and Aaron) novel Chapter 153

Chapter 153
“Left?” I practically shout, rage and grief surging up within me. “Where did he go?”
And before James can even answer that question, “Where is my baby?!”
James looks away from me.
But not before I see the grief.
The reluctance.
The wish to be anywhere but here, having this conversation with me.
“James,” I whisper brokenly, because from that one look I know.
I know what became of my baby, and I can’t hear it.
I wish I was dead.
That’s what was meant to happen.
I was meant to d ie, but my baby, my son, was supposed to live and unite the Roberts and Rathbom packs in a way they never had been before.
My child was supposed to live where I couldn’t.
And now-
Now I had my wolf, yes, but my Alpha powers are gone.
I felt them leave my body. In those horrible moments at the warehouse, it wasn’t just my life force that was leaving me, but the lineage my father left me too.
And Aaron.
He has landed the final insult.
Aaron had turned me, saved me, maybe even mated me. All at the expense of our child.
And then as soon as I’d woken up, he’d walked away like I didn’t even matter.
Ask one of our staff to fill you in, he’d said, like I wasn’t even worth the time it would take him to explain.
Anger and grief and sadness and a million other emotions bubble up within me, and it’s too much.
Too much for one person to handle.
I drop to the floor in the middle of the foyer, right there at the bottom of the stairs I’ve walked up and down a million times since |
came here as a child.
And then I start screaming..
James calls my name, crouching down next to me, hesitantly reaching out like he doesn’t know whether to touch me.
I wrench away from him.
My grief and fury will not be appeased by anyone or anything.
And then something else starts happening.
My wolf
She shoves up inside me like a rising tide of power and hunger.
I feel my skin ripple. Then my muscles clench and release.
Then my bones are moving beneath my skin.
Then there’s more things happening at once than I can catalog, but within moments, it’s like I sink into this warm, calming place, retreating from the world around me.
I feel my body moving in a new way.
Getting up onto four paws. Shaking out my fur.
The wolfis in charge now, and she is furious
She leaps into the air, straight at James, who doesn’t see it coming.
I take him down to the floor, my wolf a more solid weight than I’ll ever be.
And then she’s clawing and biting with rage, until there’s a shout from nearby, and other pack members come running. I leap off James, tasting blood in my mo uth, and it makes me want to hunt. To find an outlet for all these furious emotions inside me
My wolf whirls around and starts bounding toward the door, intending to run.
I’m glad for it. My wolf can’t feel human emotions, not the kind that were su c king me under just moments ago.
And while she’s in charge, I feel safe, like it’s okay for me to let go of everything, just for a little while. It’ll still be there after my wolf
has run and returned control to me.
I trust her.
More than I trust anyone else in my life right now.
Maybe even more than I trust myself.
Adam has arrived and is yelling my name, telling me not to go, begging me to stay, to shift back so we can talk
Huh. So Aaron could always understand me whenever I spoke to his wolf.
He just never chose to acknowledge it.
I ignore Adam and bound toward the open door, out into the cold sharp winter sunshine of Montana.