Bad Love: An Alpha's Regret (Leah and Aaron) novel Chapter 208

Chapter 208
LEAH
It’s never been like this between me and Aaron before.
What happened back at the Council Meeting was a shadow compared to the pleasure, sensations and emotions washing back and forth between us now through the mating bond.
And to think, I had been missing out on this for years, simply because my own father bound my wolf in some twisted attempt to thwart Aaron.
I push the thoughts from my mind, not wanting anything
negative or unpleasant to come between us now.
Instead, I put all of my energy into giving Aaron what he gave me moments ago.
It felt like love, there’s not other word to describe it.
I never thought Aaron could or ever would love me, and part of me is shy and unsure, thinking that maybe I’m understanding things wrong, and Aaron doesn’t really feel
that at all.
I doubt he’ll ever say it out loud.
But in this moment, I don’t care.
Things between us are so complicated-even more so than I imagined-but I want to let us have this if nothing else.
This one perfect, magical moment where the rest of the world doesn’t exist.
Where we can be complete with each other, and create something good amongst the rest of the chaos that is our lives.
Aaron relaxes beneath me, open and at ease in a way I’ve never seen before. As good as the sex always was between us, in the past it had always been about him keeping a measure of control, over both me and himself.
But right now, I watch him let go in a way he never has before-trusting me implicitly to take care of him-and I don’t think I’ve ever loved him more than I do at this moment.
His hips lazily roll up to meet mine and I almost can’t stand the way pleasure is building so quickly within me. But this is about Aaron, so I focus my attention on making sure he feels it as
well.
We find a rhythm, and I can feel the intensity of it growing
between us as I lean down to kiss him. His hand comes to
the back of my neck, holding me in place as he devours me hungrily, and now I can feel how he’s got his feet braced on the mattress, thrusting powerfully up into me.
It sends a shudder rolling through me, and then I’m coming again, even as Aaron shouts and I feel deep inside me where he spills his seed.
I collapse in a boneless heap on Aaron’s chest, and he gathers. me close with a content sounding sigh.
It’s perfect and amazing just like I wanted it to be.
I know this can’t last.
Eventually the rest of the world is going to intrude, and the problems between us are going to start pushing us apart again.
Sex has never been a problem between us.
It’s everything else.
We just can’t see eye to eye on so many important things.
Both of us have made mistakes.
And then there’s the pain of our lost son…
you thinking,” Aaron murmurs in a low
voice. “Just leave it for tonight, Leah.”
“But there’s so much between us Aaron. How are things ever
going to be different outside of our bedroom?”
Aaron runs a soothing hand up and down my back.
“Honestly, I don’t know right now.”
I go still as a thought occurs to me.
He’s been pushing me away so much, what if this doesn’t change anything at all, and I still lose him?
Karolina had said maybe the best thing to do would be to break the mating bond, but I don’t want to do that.
Especially after tonight.
Maybe I’m foolish, but I think things between us can’t be this good if our mating bond is a lost cause.
“Do you even want to fix things between us?” I ask in a quiet voice, afraid to hear the answer.
“This has never been about what I want,” Aaron answers. “The
pack always has to come first, and I know you get that, Leah.
Maybe better than anyone.”
An answer without answering.
So typical of Aaron.
“Forget the pack for just a second,” I say, even though it feels. like blasphemy to utter such a thing. “What do you want, Aaron?”