Bad Love: An Alpha's Regret (Leah and Aaron) novel Chapter 271

Chapter 271
“I don’t know,” Aaron says with a smile. “I was hoping you
could tell me. It feels familiar, but I don’t think I’ve ever been here before.”
“That’s exactly what I thought!” I reply with a laugh, before simply staring up at him in awe.
“I can’t believe you’re here. I thought I’d never see you again,” I say, hugging him closer.
“Now it’s my turn to say that’s exactly what I thought,” Aaron jokes, squeezing me tighter. “Go d, I miss you, Leah. I don’t know what I’m meant to do without you.”
“I miss you too, Aaron,” I say quietly, and the sadness starts
creeping in, even though I just want to enjoy this moment and feel the joy of being with him again, even if on some level I know this isn’t real. That I’m dreaming. That eventually I’m going to wake up and be without him again.
Except my wolf is nudging me from within.
She’s trying to tell me that this is real, and Aaron isn’t gone.
I ignore her.
I’m sure it’s just wishful thinking on her part.
Because she misses her mate as much as I do.
I don’t want to think about reality right now. I just want to savor every single second I’m here with him in this magical
place.
We stand there for a while longer, just holding onto each
other.
It’s like time has ceased to have any meaning.
An entire eternity could have passed in the time we simply stand there, breathing together, while our hearts beat in sync.
I think about how we were first mated, how Aaron brought me back from beyond death.
How our bond transcends anything logical in this mortal life.
And I think there must be some real truth to that.
Because how else could I be here with Aaron, and it feel as real as any waking moment I spent with him in the past?
Eventually, however, Aaron shifts back a little.
I look up to ask him if something is wrong-scared he’s going to tell me it’s time to leave-but instead he kisses me.
It is so deep and loving and full of longing that it takes my breath away and makes my heart ache with how much love I feel radiating between us.
Aaron gently lowers me to the soft meadow grass, and clothes start disappearing.
This wasn’t my intention when I saw him, but now that it’s happening, I don’t want anything else except to feel us joined
as one.
To be as close to him as possible, body, heart, mind and soul.
Somehow, I think, if we can connect so completely, surely, I can bring him back to me from beyond wherever he went to after he died.
After all, Aaron did it for me.
Why can’t I do it for him in return?
My thoughts splinter as Aaron lovingly worships my body until I’m nothing but a senseless puddle of pleasure.
Only then does Aaron join us, and he’s never been so mindful,
so tender yet intense, so utterly in tune with me that it feels.
like we’re sharing the same heart and mind.
He takes us to incredible heights over and over, and I never
want this to end.
I want to exist in this perfect moment of ecstasy forever.
But nothing lasts forever-that’s one hard lesson I have learned over and over in this life-and then Aaron is shouting his pleasure as he comes deep inside my body, and I’m falling apart for the millionth time.
After, Aaron gathers me close and we enjoy the feel of the warm sun on our bare skin, breathing in the scent of flowers and sweet meadow grass like it’s a perfect spring day.
“Leah,” Aaron says after a while. “I wish you would come back to me. I would do anything to bring you back, you know that, right?”
I half sit up to look down at him, feeling confused. “What do you mean? I’m not the one who left. You did.”
At this Aaron looks confused and sits up as well. “Leah, don’t you remember what happened?”
“Of course I do!” I say, trying to keep the distress at bay, but not succeeding very well. “We broke the mating bond, and I lost you. I’ll never forget that horrible day.”
Aaron catches my hand, and he’s looking even more confused now, but also like he’s trying to figure something out.
“No, Leah, I lost you. All this time, you’ve been gone. You died
Abruptly, I’m snapped back to my body, awake and sitting up
in a rush.
My face is wet with tears, and I cry harder as I realize I’ve
been ripped away from that magical place, away from Aaron, and I’ll never see him again.
But I’m so confused.
I don’t understand what was happening in that dream.
Aaron said he lost me.
In fact, the last thing he said was that I had been the one to
die, not him.
Which makes no sense, because obviously I’m sitting here right now in his bed and he’s not.
It just had to be my mind, playing some kind of cruel trick on
me.
But my wolf, she’s pushing restlessly, urgently against my insides.
Like she needs to get out, like she needs to run until she finds her mate.
But she won’t find him, because he’s gone from this world.
No, my wolf says clearly and concisely. He’s still alive.