Beauty and The Beta (Bailey) novel Chapter 116

I ran my hands through my hair in frustration, realizing she was expecting me to continue what I was saying. “Eurgh… I am even worse with words. Look, I realize some things are private, so you may not want to share them. But I am worried about you. Maybe I have no right to be. But I am. You look like you have been crying… or want to cry. And that bothers me. Look, you can tell me to mind my own business, and in truth, I probably would if I were you, but, is there anything I can help with?” My words feel jumbled as they blurt from my mouth...

I sit, my breathing rapid as I am feeling like a total idiot at the words I have just blurted out as Bailey looks at me, completely lost…

Then, she suddenly sighed, a sigh that sounded like it came from her feet. It was so deep. But, she shook her head. “Beta Asher, honestly, it isn’t even worth talking about.”

“Is any shit that makes you feel crappy?” I said, and she looked at me in surprise. “And, didn’t I say to call me Asher?” I reminded her.

She shrugged in response to my words. “Fine, Asher.” And I have to say, I am surprised just how good my name sounds from her lips… it sounds pretty good… but she continued. “Like I said, it isn’t even worth talking about. Or worrying you about. Let me say it is just me feeling sad over something that was never even mine.” She said quietly, before looking down at her feet, a blush of embarrassment crossing her face.

“You missing the guy who met his fated mate I guess?” I asked, and at my words I saw the pain across her face. I know my guess was likely right. “I don’t think there would be any shame in that. Especially if you guys were close. It is like losing someone, right? Losing a link that was there, and now it feels like it is lost?” I suggested how I saw it, though it pains me to admit, I hate the thought of her being close to another guy…

Bailey shrugged, and suddenly, out of nowhere, Zion is back. After being absent all afternoon and evening, he is back, pacing within my mind, so on edge, and he is whimpering, like he can sense her pain and he doesn’t like it. Not one little bit. Like he did not like to see her struggling. What is going on with my wolf today? I only prayed he did not get any louder, or she would be hearing him and I had no clue how I could explain that…

“I sound like I feel sorry for myself, but I don’t. I just have the occasional moment where things get on top of me, I guess. I can say without doubt, I would never have wanted to be with Miles. He treated me so badly before and after he rejected me. I had a lucky escape. But, I can’t help but wonder if my own fated mate didn’t want me, and the guy I turned to and trusted enough to consider as a chosen mate isn’t there for me now, if I am forever going to be alone.” she whispered, and her words are so quiet they are barely audible, but because I am sitting next to her, I can hear her, and I can feel the pain within her voice.

I saw a tear slide down her face. It sounded like she had been through too much, far too young. But, I know this pain she is talking of. Because I have felt the same pain in the years since Isla died. A pain that eats away at you. One that makes you wonder if you can cope. The fear of forever being alone…