Besotted novel Chapter 30

I threw my things on the floor as I ran to my bed and threw myself on the bed hugging the pillow as I cried my eyes out. It was the moment, I realized how alone I was. My eyes fell on my parent's picture on the wall and that made me sob more.

"I really wish you were here," I mumbled as sleep overtook me and I closed my eyes letting slumber taking over me.

I don't give a fuck as long as you are with me.

I will always love you.

I love you.

I jolted up from my sleep as I clutched the pillow tightly. How could he turn from the most beautiful and sensible thing to a nightmare? How could this happen to me? Just a kiss and everything around me was broken. Caleb just took it another level because Eden kissed me.

All the time that we spent together seemed like a nightmare to me. It seemed as if I did the biggest mistake of my life being with him. The man hated me and anything he wanted from me was to take over my body and my soul. He had no respect for me but the only thing he wanted was to control me.

I tried my best to tell him that he was mistaken but every time he pushed me away with a whip of a hunter wanting to hurt me. I could never forget the words that he used for me. The man I once thought would be everything to me was just a devil.

Now I was even scared to think about him. My body shook and trembled as I thought about the eyes he had when he talked to me, accusing me, calling me names that I didn't deserve only for a single mistake. If only I had been in my right sense of mind, I would have never allowed him to get closer to me for a bit.

I got off the bed and got rid of my clothes as I threw the beige shirt into the dustbin because he had ripped its button and I no longer wished to see anything that would make me remember him and walked into the bathroom for a shower.

I saw my face in the mirror as I turned the shower on. It was puffy and red from all the crying. The worst part was my neck and chest were covered with hickeys. I rubbed them wanting to get rid of them when all of a sudden I felt shame and disgust washing over me, I broke down and fell on my knees on the bathroom tile as the water fell on me.

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Its been a day since the incident happened to me and as I tried my best to forget everything, I refused to walk out of my apartment and talked with the security not to allow anyone who seeks for me.

I refused to go out as I spend my day and night alone in my apartment. My sadness remained making its way to my heart and brain as I remained sleeping on my sofa watching out of the balcony.

Even though I had not eaten anything, I couldn't make it to stand up and have something to eat. I felt tired as if the whole energy drained out of my body just because of what happened between me and Caleb. My phone vibrated and I saw an email from the design school which reminded me to pay my course fee and then it struck me.

I couldn't just lay around thinking about what has happened to me. I needed to rise up and remain walking ahead. Jewelry designing was my dream but here I was, starving myself to sleep all because of a man.

I got up from the sofa and walked to my room and get dressed. Even though the temperature was pretty nice outside, still I felt cold as I thought of wearing a red shirt and denim jacket over it and threw on my jeans as I held my wallet and phone and finally walked out of my apartment to get myself some food.

Finally, fresh air hit my face and I felt as if I was breathing after a long time. My nostrils flared up wanting to breathe in as much of air it could and I closed my eyes for a brief second calming down my nerves and feeling fresh. The walk to the nearby Walmart was less than ten minutes and I bought the things, especially canned food and instant noodles as I felt no mood for cooking.

My eyes fell on a magazine in a newspaper stall and it had Caleb's face on the front for being in Forbe's. I had mix reaction to seeing his face but I clutched the bag in my hand tight and walked out back to my house.

Never had I ever thought that things would turn so ugly for me. The feelings that I had in my chest was even worse and I felt as if I am betraying myself because I was still thinking about him. No matter how much he hurt me and how much I tried to forget or forgive him, I couldn't.

The ten minutes walk back to my apartment seemed like an eternity because it felt as if I was only dragging myself from here and there. As soon as I turned towards my street, my eyes fell on a car outside my apartment and instantly the blood drained out from my face as I recognized the car and the man leaning next to it.

Caleb.