Betrothed To The Mafia Lord novel Chapter 176

Sofia’s POV

He didn’t let me continue with what I was about to say, before he was interrupting me calmly, his hand still moving up and down on my arm, from my elbow to the upper side of my shoulder.

“No, it isn’t. I’m sorry I brought it up.” He started to say once again, breathing out those words and saying it with such passion, and I started to shake my head in the next second, as I sniffed back tears once again.

“It’s alright,” I breathed out, my voice fracking a little, but I ignored that and decided to continue to speak. “I can talk to you about it.” I breathed out in a voice that was quiet, breathless and trembling a little.

“You don’t have to speak about it if you do not want to.” Luca started to speak instantly, his grip tightening on my arm for a few seconds before finally loosening and returning back to it’s previous hold.

“I want–“ I paused and sniffed back tears, breathing out a deep breath and breathing in deep into the next moment, feeling my chest start to expand and tighten up in the next second, just as I started to speak one again. “I want to talk to you about it.” I completed my sentence this time, and my voice only managed to crack a little. I puffed out a deep breath as I pulled the jacket around me even more, as if it wasn’t wrapped tightly around me enough, moments ago.

“Are you sure about that? You don’t have to speak about it if you do not want to. I had no idea it was this sensitive, if not, I wouldn’t have bothered to bring it up.” Luca started to say in the next second, trailing off in the last second and continuing to speak after a few seconds had passed. “I only brought it up because I was worried about you, so I’d know how best to handle it if it happens next time…” Luca trailed off at the last moment and I swallowed emptily, feeling cold even though a warm jacket was currently wrapped tightly around my body. My fingers were feeling numb and dried up, and my throat was feeling super scratchy, with my stomach tightening up painfully.

I nodded my head once, shaking my head a little to get some of my hair out of my face, before I decided to start to speak once again. “I think I am.” I replied and paused once again, rolling a few words around in my tongue and mouth for a few moments, before finally deciding to allow the words to roll out.

“I think I want to tell you about it, I want you to know about it.” I breathed out after a moment, after I had thought thoroughly about what I was about to do in my head for a few seconds. Luca was someone I trusted, someone I had grown to trust even without even realizing it, until right now after thinking about it. And now that I had thought about it, I realized that I trusted him a lot, trusted him the most in the whole world, to be able to start contemplating on whether to tell him about this particular thing which I’ve never told a soul in my whole life, or to not bother speaking to him about it, seeing as he had literally given me an out to it.

But then I realized that I wanted him to know about it, I wanted him to know because I trusted him to that extent, and seeing as he had admitted to being worried about me and being caring enough to be thinking about the fact that I might get visited with that particular night mate once again, that was why I had decided to tell him about it, because it had seemed like he really cared, and I trusted him as well.

“Are you sure?” He asked after about a minute and I nodded my head once without bothering to reply with actual words, and his voice started to echo around me in the next second.

“If you’re sure then.” He continued and I felt my chest start to tighten up almost immediately, and my stomach start to tighten up in the next second.