Bound by Vows novel Chapter 30

He started kissing my neck while his hands roamed on my waist.

"You're beautiful. But only mine" he said possessively while kissing my neck, nibbling my skin, biting it with his teeth. Then again sucking my neck with his lips.

I closed my eyes and gripped his shirt in my fist. I was experiencing a very new feeling. A wave was hitting me in my stomach. Don't know what is happening to me. It’s all new for me.

He rose his face from my neck and looked in my eyes while looking at my lips.

Is he going to kiss me? Is h-?

My thoughts interrupted when he smashed his lips into mine.

He started sucking, nibbling and kissing my lower lip.

I moaned and he entered his tongue in my mouth.

He tasted every corner of my mouth then came back to my lips. I equally responded to him. I kissed him back trying to match his pace.

We stopped after some minutes when we felt shortage of oxygen.

He looked me with a smile which i never saw on his face before.

I lowered my eyes as i am feeling guilty for this. I don't know if i wanted this or not but i equally enjoyed so i cannot blame him for forcing me.

I ignored him and moved to closet to took out my clothes for night.

I need a relaxing shower.

When I come back, he was already sleeping on bed. I moved to my side and lay down on the bed.

I closed my eyes but open it immediately when i felt his hand on my stomach.

I looked him who was now hovering over me.

"What are you doing Kabir?" I asked him as i am getting uncomfortable with this closeness of our.

"Say it again" he asked.

What??

"What ar-" i started but stopped by him.

"Not this. My name. Say it again" he said.

Is he mad?

"Are yo-" i started but again interfered.

"Say it please" he asked.

And i said as if hypnotized by his eyes.

"Kabirr" i said looking into his eyes.

He close his eyes as if savouring it.

"You know you have said my name for the first time" he said after opening his eyes.

Is it? I tried to remember the time when i called him by his name. I don't remember. Maybe its true.

"And it feels so sweet coming out from your rosy lips" he again said shocking me.

Had someone mixed something in his drink. He is behaving like a romantic husband with me.

"Can i sleep now? Its already 12:30 in the night" i said looking at the wall clock.

"No!!! I don't want to" he said while dipping his face on my neck. He inhaled my fragrance.

He again started kissing my neck and lowering the step of my top down my shoulders.

"Kabirrr" i said trying to stop him and placed my hands on his shoulders.

I didn't noticed till now that he didn't have any shirt.

"Yes baby" he said still kissing my jawline.

"You're drunk. Don't do this. You will even forget all this in the morning" i said trying to push him but he is too strong.

"No i know what i am doing. I am very much in my senses" he said looking into my eyes.

He closed our distance and kissed me on my lips. He sucked my lower lip slowly.

I felt his hands inside my top slowly moving upwards.

I gasped when his finger touched the outline of my bra below my chest. My breath hitched. I am hearing my own heart beat which are moving very fastly.

He turned our position and put me on his top still kissing me.

He removed my top leaving me in my bra only. He again put me on my back and started kissing my shoulders. Slowly going down to my stomach.

I felt an unknown wave in my stomach. I am feeling something in my core.

But all that broke when he unhooked my bra. I kept my hand on front keeping it intact in its place. I pushed him lightly stopping him.

"Stop" i said. He stopped and looked me confusingly.

"Why?" He asked.

"Its...its not right" i said covering myself with the quilt.

"But why? It’s all right Payal. I am your husband not some other person" he said.

"I know you're my husband. But i am not comfortable in all this. And we are still not at that stage to do all this" i said feeling guilty as i was equally involved in this. I should have stopped him earlier.

"But you're equally enjoying it as much as i was. If not, then you wouldn't be responding that much to my touches" he said stroking my hairs.

Yes he is right. How could i do this? How could i enjoy his touches. I felt my eyes wet at this thought.

"I know but i don't want this at this stage. Please" i said while a tear rolled out of my eyes.

"Okay, i understand. You stop crying. Its my fault that I started all this. I am sorry for that" he said and slept showing his back to me.

I controlled my emotions and put on my top. After sometime when my tears soaked, sleep engulfed me in its warm hug.

I didn't saw him when i woke up today in the morning.

Well that's good for now as i don't want to face him after last night fiasco.

I am getting ready for the college. Mummy specifically told me to wear saree today as her sister is coming and she is quite old-fashioned in these things.

I walked down but met with divya on the stairs.

"How are you feeling now divi?" I asked her.

"I am better now bhabhi. Sorry for last night if i said something stupid in my drunken state" she said.

"Don't know what you said was stupid or not but it was definitely a matter not to ignore. Well, we'll talk about it at some other time" i said hinting about that.

She gave me shocking yet confused face but i stepped down from stairs as i am getting late for the college.

"Good morning baby" i said kissing aashi on her cheeks who is having her breakfast.

"Good morning mumma" she said with a smile.

Oh god, how much i was missing it...

"Ready for school?" I asked her.

"Yes" she said.

"Good" i said stuffing food in my mouth as well.

"Payal you came, good!!! Though i told you about didi earlier, but beta she has a habit of saying things to everyone, please don't mind and bear with her for few days" she said confusing me.