Broken Bad Boy novel Chapter 6

PERCIE

Fifteen months ago…

“I knew what you have, Emma. I knew about your condition. Why can’t you blame me? Yell at me or hate me? It makes me guiltier. Why do you have to be so cool about this?” I shook my head and stood up from her bed. I scratched my head out of frustration.

“You sound okay with this. I hate seeing you like this. It’s killing me, Emma. Tell me why it’s so easy for you to accept all of these?” My voice rose a little.

Her lips quivered. Jesus. Nothing in this world I did right. I settled beside her again as I dwelled my own agony.

“I’m sorry, Em. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to put myself in this situation. I don’t even know what to do with myself without you. I don’t mean to yell at you. I’m just so frustrated and lost that I am so useless to you.” I kissed her forehead. “Emma, I love you. I would do anything if given a chance to be in your position. I want you to walk again, Em.”

“Perce, I love you too. Please, stop blaming yourself. I needed to accept this, Perce. It happened. Nothing’s gonna change this. I have to move forward and forget about the grudge. I may stay in a wheelchair, but most paraplegic people like me have survived and lived longer. I can still go to college or take online classes. I can still function, although I have to work with my wheelchair and stay seated. I just need some skills on how to function on daily living.”

I looked at her in the eyes, searching for sadness or grief in there. All I saw was the same Emma before the accident. The more I got the fact that she had accepted everything so quickly, the more I wanted to hurt myself.

“I’m here, Emma. I’ll help you with everything I can. I will never leave you. We’ll stick together like before,” I reassured her.

“No, Perce. You have to go to college at Hillston. We can still talk every day over the phone. In the meantime, I need to stay here for a while until I can function alone by myself.”

I shook my head. “No, Em. We stick together. I will stay here and help you every day. End of discussion. I will attend college, but not this year. Let me at least help you, Emma. Please?”

“Perce, No! You won’t gonna stop because of me. Go to college, or I’ll never talk to you again. Mom and Dad have arranged a rehab facility for me until I can function on my own. I’ll be fine there. When I’m ready, that’s the time I will attend college with you. Promise me, Percival? Promise me you’ll go to college this year?”

I slumped myself into the chair and blew a huge breath.

She was so stubborn.

“You can help me later when I’m done in rehab. That’s a promise. You can still come and see me every weekend if you want to.”

It didn’t make me feel any better. I looked at her in disbelief, but I had no choice but to agree with her.

She may not be able to walk again, but I wanted her to enjoy her life after the rehab. This was one way to help her. If I would stop her, it was like I was holding her life.

“I promise, Emma. I’ll visit you every weekend, even every day for as long as I can.” I held her hand.

She squeezed it and smiled at me. “Thank you for doing this to me, Perce.”

“I love you, Emma Peyton.”

I left her room when she finally fell asleep. I had to enroll in Hillston. I had an acceptance letter from them. I had to do what I promised Emma.

***

I stayed in my room when I got home from the hospital. Emma would be transferred to a rehab center in Jefferson, an hour ride to Hillston. I could see her often when I started college. I could already feel my heart soaring with hope.

My bedroom door flew open. Mom was standing with a furious look. Her hands were on her hips.

I sat up in bed.

“What the hell are you doing here? How dare you visit her in the hospital? The moment you brought her into that hospital bed, you lost your right to visit her. I will call the police to drag you out if you will plan on seeing her again, Percival!”