Camp Closeted novel Chapter 61

"I never knew that making a s'more could be this fucking aggravating, Sascha can you do it, this shit is giving me anxiety." Cadence loudly let out.

Sascha held in a small giggle as he carefully grabbed onto the stick that was skewered with melting marshmallows. "It's not hard, all you have to do is put it in between the 2 graham crackers and then you're done." Sascha shrugged as he gave it to Cadence.

The s'more making station was less packed and busy now since it was starting to become very late. Most of the people that roamed around the bonfire were now gone, including the DJ, only making the atmosphere a lot more quieter  than before.

Regardless of what happened, I hope Romeo got home safe. After that stunt he pulled with him licking my mouth in front of Jesse, his friends quickly found him and helped him away. It felt so odd to see him in that state.

Jesse politely moved his head closer towards me to capture my attention. "You want caramel on yours?" Jesse asked as I quickly grabbed it after blinking out of my thoughts, making him chuckle.

"Y-yea, of course." I grinned, pouring it all over my s'more and then handing it back. "Wait this is like my 13th s'more, why aren't you stopping me? This is so bad." I humorously let out.

Jesse furrowed his brows at me with a careless shrug. "Who cares?"

I furrowed my brows back. "Um, I do. You're super hot and I have to keep up. You know how bad it would look if a hot guy was seen dating a pudge!?" I bit into the s'more anyway, letting out a cracky laugh.

He bit onto his s'more too. "Who cares, I'm technically the pudge. Whatever that is." He deeply replied.

My eyes quickly narrowed at him after I swallowed. "Jesse no you're not. You're probably just saying that to make me feel better." I couldn't help but grin as I bit once again.

"You know what then? Fuck it, we're both pudges, how about that?" We both laughed. Jesse's smile slowly faded away into a more serious stare. "Have you figured out when you're leaving the camp yet?"

I deeply sighed. "Probably this coming weekend. Almost everyone I know is leaving next week and the week right after. I know for sure you have to go back to Italy soon, right?"

"This weekend, yea." Jesse bit his lip as he buried a hand into his pocket. "I wish you can come with me." What he said caused a wave of silence to break between us.

I tried to smile now. "H-here, lets not think about it." My hand quickly grabbed onto his. "Tonight has been so amazing and I don't wanna ruin it by being sad."

Jesse's eyes subtly brightened. "You're right." He nodded. "Fuck being sad." He added nonchalantly.

Jesse and I joined in on Benny and Keanu's conversation with Leo and Andrew. "Oh wow I didn't know all the couples were planning to huddle up together." Benny announced making us laugh. "How the bonfire go for y'all?" He asked softly once I stood next to him.

"Oh it was perfect. All we did was just eat, listen to the music and talk." I smiled widely at him. "I don't ever want this night to end to be honest."

"Well damn, you got a lot of energy. Keanu and I drank and just danced. We're not having it anymore, we need sleep." Benny laughed loudly as the others had their own conversations. "We're just talking to Andrew about the camp closeted year book and then we're gonna head out. Were you and Jesse planning to stay longer?"

My mouth widened as I didn't really know what to answer so I just quickly turned towards Jesse who was chuckling with Keanu about something. "Jesse they're gonna leave soon, did you wanna leave or stay?"

Jesse glanced down at me. "Well I wanted to stay longer, but if you wanna go then we can go.

I just subtly smiled and nodded. "W-we can stay." What I said made Jesse smile also. "We'll stay." I told Benny.

Benny just yawned, stretching to himself. "And how the hell are you guys planning to get back?" He tiredly let out.

Just before I could've tried responding, Jesse had already spoken out for my silence. "We'll find someone." He shrugged.

Benny's eyes just slightly widened at him. "Well make sure that someone isn't a damn serial killer. It's midnight, so be safe."

"We will, momma Benny." Jesse teased, making Benny let out a small exhausted smile.

So our only plan to get home is to find someone huh?

"You ready?" Keanu sneaked an arm around Benny's waist, gesturing for them to finally leave.

"Yea." Benny smiled brightly at him. "Y'all are sure you guys will have a ride back home?" He asked one last time.

"Yes." Jesse and I let out simultaneously, making us throw each other funny looks.

"Alright then, lets go." Benny yawned once more, Keanu holding hands with him as they began to walk out of the bonfire.

I wanted to try and talk to Andrew and Leo but they already disappeared somewhere, leaving Jesse and I alone near the s'more station.

All of a sudden, I felt Jesse slowly pull me into him with a tempting smirk. "May I have this dance?" His deep voice huskily asked.

I couldn't help but humorously chuckle up at him. "To what? The DJ left hours ago." I cautiously wrapped my arms around his neck. I then watched his hands gently wrap around my waist, making our bodies rub against each other.

"We don't need music." His deep ocean colored eyes brightened, his perfectly reddened lips smirking into me. "All we need is each other."

It's been a minute of us just deeply gazing at each other and I wasn't entirely bothered by it. I observed how clear Jesse's skin was, every single part of his face radiating warmth towards me like the sun.

His messily sculptured midnight hair sat just right on top of his blue dilated eyes. His eyes stared so deep into me and I felt like I was looking into a telescope pointed directly at the stars.

"We're not even dancing." I couldn't help but laugh out loud as he joined in. "We're literally just up against each other." My voice audibly quieter from intimidation.

"Is that bad?" Jesse raised an eyebrow at me. "I don't really know how to dance." He anxiously whispered.

"I don't eithe-" He quickly interrupted me with his mouth.

He tasted like warm sweet s'mores, love, and the entire galaxy. I felt almost frozen as to how good he felt and tasted. This kiss felt different than usual. It's definitely one of the more passionate ones and the way he kissed me just felt undeniably glorious.

Once our mouths broke away, both of his arms held my cheeks together. "Potrei guardarti tutto il giorno." Jesse spoke in a way I've never heard him speak before. His tone, his demeanor, his voice, his accent, everything was different but for the better.

"Italian?" I asked, biting my lip.

"Mhm." He nodded proudly.

"Are you gonna tell me what it meant?" I softly asked another question.

"Look it up." He teased, making me playfully roll my eyes as his grip around my waist tightened.

"Ugh." I quietly chuckled. "You're mean."

After that, both of us just remained quiet, proceeding to get lost in each other's eyes once more.

All of a sudden he looked away from me, a glimmer of subtle worry coming across his face, making me speak out. "What's wrong?"

He quickly looked back at me, visibly trying to cover up his worried facial expression. "Nothing, I'm just worried about how the fuck we're gonna get back to camp." He anxiously chuckled but I wasn't amused. "Whatever, we'll be fine, let's go." He took my hand, gesturing me to follow him towards some group of guys that I didn't know.

The group of guys we walked into seemed as if they all consisted of only tall, masculine, and incredibly attractive male models and I definitely didn't fit the part since I was way shorter than them.

"Alex!" Jesse excitedly let out, poking a guy on his tan chiseled arm.

The boy I've never seen before turned his attention at Jesse, his smirk all of a sudden widening. "Oh my god, Jess." He quickly hugged Jesse, his eyes sharply piercing up and down at me and then turning back to look at Jesse. "Damn, look at you! You look so hot, you still workout huh?" He bit his lip, his hand slightly skimming against Jesse's arm.

I couldn't help but slightly crinkle my face at their interaction as I quickly caught myself since I was probably just overreacting.

Jesse let out an amused laugh as his cheeks slightly reddened. "Yea of course dude, you know me." He beamed. "This is my boyfriend Micah, by the way."

I threw on a small smile but it quickly faltered since the guy didn't really care enough to even throw me a glance.

Alex kept his eyes on Jesse. "I'm really glad you're doing well. The guys at Brazen miss you a lot, especially Gio." He slyly winked. "But yea, we have to hang out soon, maybe go to the gym together or something."

Who the fuck is Gio?

"I'd love that." Jesse nodded, his eyes glancing down at me, probably noticing the undeniable change in my happy facial expression.

More guys around the circle quickly came closer to talk to Jesse, making me lose him in the crowd as I slowly backed away.

Jesse kept his eyes at me the whole time, throwing me an apologetic smile as I just causally scrunched my lip to the side. Jesse gestured for me to come closer towards him as I quickly shook my head to decline in the politest way possible.

I kept quiet as I could just feel my posture looking incredibly awkward from the intense insecurity I rapidly felt being around these people. Jesse fit the part just perfectly since he had already disappeared into conversations with several other guys.

I let out a weakened exhale as I just blinked, confused as to how I should react at the current situation.

I chewed onto my lip as I slowly began to turn around, proceeding to leave before I look even more stupid by just watching Jesse talk to other guys.

After I finished turning around and began walking towards the far exit, a tight yet gentle grip made its way around my wrist. "You were gonna leave me?" Jesse caught up to me as I felt him look down in subtle worry.

"Your friends couldn't care less about me being there. I didn't wanna feel awkward by just watching you have conversations with them." I spoke low as I kept my eyes on the grass, Jesse following me to the exit.

"I was trying to introduce you but so many people were talking to me at the same ti-" I rapidly interrupted his words.

"Who's Gio?" I asked, causing piercing silence to break out in between us.

His lack of response finally made me look up to him in visible curiosity, his face struck with slight confusion. "Some guy I knew back in Brazen. I don't really talk to him anymore though."

"Hm." I just dryly looked back down as we kept walking towards the exit.

"Why?" He sharply breathed out.

"Why what?" I let back out.

"Why did you wanna know who he was?" Slight pride and amusement began to be painted onto his voice. "You jealous?" He half-laughed.

"I'm not jealous, I was just curious." I quickly shrugged, not bothering to return his sharp gaze on me.

"Why do you look so upset?" Jesse raised a brow at me.

"I'm not."

"Yes you are."

"Shut up."

"See, you're clearly mad about something!"

"Im serious Jesse, shut up."

"Stop being so grumpy and tell me what's wrong!"

"I'm not grumpy."

"You're so jealous and it's obvious."

"Jesse stop it!"

"What are you jealous about?"

"Jesse just shut the fuck up!" I loudly exclaimed, making the both of us stop ourselves from walking.

I quickly got shy as I anxiously looked side to side, away from Jesse's subtly hurt facial expression. "That whole situation back there was just so weird to me!" I harshly whispered, making his face crinkle.