CAN I?? novel Chapter 29

NIKHIL POV:

"You know it's not her fault right?!" I shouted at me, seeing myself in mirror.

"You should have apologized for your behaviour and talked like an adult but instead you started behaving like a maniac"

"It's all Yuktha who did it! But you believed her but not aaru.. why?"

"Think about her side too, how much she suffered being alone. How she survived without anyone."

"Literally noone was there for her. Not even you" I shouted loudly

Even when I realized now, it's too late. She is engaged to someone else

But why do I feel so uneasy seeing her with him and Ansh, he is literally hating me.

How can he not when you left his mom like a orphan my inner self scolded me.

Suddenly breathing became difficult, and I'm burdened with my acts & guilt. I wish I could go back and change our relation.

When I'm drowned in my guilty, Yuktha came and sat beside me eating something.

From the day I came back from Aaru home, I'm not same like before I'm thinking about her 24*7.

If you're thinking what happened for my sudden change, but it's not sudden. I went to her office to talk to her but by seeing ansh with her, I lost my senses.

I thought how can she not I tell me about my son!? But I failed to think about her side too.

Even when mamaya said that aaru is his daughter, I only thought ansh. How I became so selfish??

"What happened,why are you crying!?" Yuktha asked me while eating her mango pudding.

Am I crying!? I touched my face to get proof, but alas I'm crying.

Why now nikhil, everything is over now. No need to cry, you successfully destroyed your sweet life. My inner self mocked at me.

You know what, we can lie to anyone but no to self right!?

"No I'm not.. how is your health" I asked her

"Oh..you remembered I thought that you forget about me" she replied sarcastically.

I fake smiled and sat beside " it's just some random tension, tell me how is your health and our baby.

I can't do another mistake, I will take care of Yuktha and baby. May be I can ask Yuktha why she is did that but her health condition is stopping me.

"We are good and can you take me to shopping." She asked me

"Sure but suddenly why my ammu is interested in shopping" I asked playfully raising my eyebrow.

She glared at me angrily and said "you forget"

Shoot me...there is only three days for Tara engagement.

"Of course not, just kidding you" I somehow covered and made her smile.

I can do anything for her smile, call me fool but my love for her made me blind and currently I'm unable to see her agenda behind aaru, mine separation.

Keeping aside all my thoughts and feelings,I told her to get ready and I went to meet my mamaya.

I knocked on his door and he opened it."what happened Nikhil?!"

"Nothing mamaya, just came to talk about something"