Capture Your Heart novel Chapter 119

"Okay."

Mia’s dull eyes move to the ceiling. She asks, "Can you hold me up?"

Troy is a little bit hesitant. Mia smiles, "It’s fine. I can sit. Just hold me up."

Troy reaches out and gently picks her up. He tries not to look at the lower part of her thighs.

"Do I look ugly now? Like a monster?"

"No."

"Don’t lie to me. I know I am no different than a monster now even if you don’t tell me."

"Mia."

Troy rebukes, "Don’t be pessimistic."

"Then what else can I do? I lost my legs. And now you are asking me to tell myself that it does not matter as long as I am still alive?"

Troy remains silent. Mia continues sorrowfully, "Maybe for everyone, life always has some highlights. But for me, it is just like death, no difference."

"I know you feel sad. I am much sadder than you. I don’t want you to experience the suffering at all."

"You want me safe and sound only because you don’t want me to become your burden again."

"Things have already happened. Just leave them there. Don’t think too much. I have told Robert to buy the best artificial limb for you. You can stand up again as long as you have confidence."

"I don’t have that kind of thing."

Mia glares at Troy hopelessly, "It’s just fake in the end. I cannot come back to my formal life forever. My life is meaningless now."

"How? Stephen Hawking could make him life meaningful. Why could not you?"

"Because I am not him."

The atmosphere between them is a little bit heavy. They both remain silent for a while. A few moments later, Troy hears Mia asking, "Will you take care of me?"

He nods, "Yes. I will do anything if you ask."

"Anything?"

Troy’s heart thuds. He adds, "Expect for marriage."

"I am sorry. I only have one request. I want you to marry me."

Troy rubs his forehead. This is what he worries most. Now, his fears come true.

"I am really sorry for the situation now. And I know the Charles Family owes too much to your family. But forgive me. I cannot satisfy you in this respect."

"You cannot? Fine. Just go. Leave me alone."

She yanks off the infusion tube in her hand. Blood seeps out at once. Troy stops her, asking astonishingly, "What are you doing?"

"You know what I am doing. I want to end this painful life."

"Calm down. Why can’t you just let go of your obsession? I don’t love you. Will you really be happy marrying someone who doesn’t love you?"

"But at least I have the reason to live. How can I talk about happiness when I am like this? Since I woke up, I have known I am denied the way to happiness because I am a monster now. I ask you to marry me so that I can have something to live for. I just want something to rely on. You only have two choices. One is marring me, the other is refusing me. If you agree, I will live for you. If you refuse, then I will not accept any help from you. Whether I live or die, it's none of your business."

Troy stands up suddenly, "Are you forcing me?"

"No. In fact, even if you agree to marry me, I won’t be happy. As you said, I have lost my hope for life. I cannot live like a normal person. Love and marriage just do not matter anymore."

"If they are not important, why do you still try to make it hard for me? Marriage is not a child’s play. If I marry you, then I will be bound to cause harm to others."