Chased by my Ex Husband novel Chapter 56

Grace

I wince, sensing the soreness between my legs. Even with so many injuries, he was relentless and insatiable.

We ended up having sex in his bedroom again before he finally called Luca and got his wounds bandaged.

I laid there, trying to make sense of things, and he was there, wiping my body with a wet cloth.

I didn’t speak, and he didn’t push me into anything. In the end, we found ourselves on the same bed.

Now, he is lying beside me, his hand placed so close to mine. My heart is pounding in my chest, refusing to calm down or settle.

“ Now, what do we call what happened between us? Is it a one-time thing or what? ” I clench the sheets.

“ I want you to stay by my side. You can stay in whatever way you want, Little Butterfly. You can be my girlfriend…or my wife. I don’t…mind. ” His hoarse, tired voice echoes in the silent room.

My heart misses a beat. Girlfriend or wife…

Both titles scare me.

And the fact that Alma was terrified of the same thing happening ticks me off even more.

“ Were you really going to jump? ” Tristin murmurs, his voice sounding exhausted in the dark.

I pull the sheets to my chin and hum. “ Not really. I was just…walking. ”

I can feel his gaze on me but I refuse to look at him right now.

“ Walking on the— ”

“ Tristin. ” I sigh. “ I did think about killing myself before. It’s true. When I was desperate for a divorce from Ethan, I was already planning on dying after we were done. ”

Suddenly, the distance between our hands ends, and he intertwines our fingers.

A lump lodges in my throat. “ but then I almost killed Ethan and for some reason…I changed my mind. Death didn’t seem so good anymore, Tristin. It felt terrible to know that things could end so smoothly, and no one would know what you are capable of. ”

“ You are capable of great things in life. I know that. ” Tristin squeezes my fingers.

“ I need to know that too. I don’t want to die anymore. I want to chase my dreams…for myself. I don’t want to end up dead without trying, just because I think I have no one. ” I swallow the lump and smile to myself. “ I am going to continue my education. I will do everything I want in life. And if I still fail…I will know that I tried my best. I will not die cold, and crying, Tristin. I want to die smiling. ”

Ethan’s face flashes before my eyes. The guilt he felt that day when I thought he died…it crushed something inside me and made me think about my last moments.

What if I end up with such guilt? What if when I am dying all I can think about is what I could have done more instead of finding peace like I wanted?

If there is no peace in death, then what’s the use of killing myself?

“ You had a hard time, and I was not there for you. ” His lips find their way to the side of my head, and I shudder. “ It will never happen again. I promise. ”

“ It will never happen again, Tristin. I know that too. ” I sigh. “ but it won’t be because of you. It will be because I will not let it happen again. ”

“ What? ” He breathes.