Chasing the rejected Luna novel Chapter 55

"Don't lie to me, Sophia. I'm not the father of your child," he said and I could see so much pain in his eyes. He was hurting so was I for not believing me. 

"Do you think I'll gladly carry the child of Ryven?"

"It doesn't matter what I think. What matters is, you're pregnant for Ryven," he stopped, his jaw twitching violently. "How was he? Was he better in bed than me that you have to hide his baby from me? Do you think I'll harm your child?"

I opened my mouth but he cut me short. "Well, I guess all these don't matter. What matters is, you're pregnant for him. So what are you going to do about it? Does Ryven know about it?" He asked and I was appalled by how well he decided to move on from the topic. 

Not because he wasn't hurt but because thinking about it would bring him more pain. I had been there. And I knew exactly how that felt. He wasn't in denial nor was he in acceptance. 

"Ryven is not the father of my child," I said slowly, enunciating each word as if it would let it sink into his head. But it did little to what I expected. 

Alexander was standing still, his eyes never leaving mine as he stared at me. I felt like a fool. And I was hurt because I thought we were finally going somewhere in our relationship. He didn't trust my words and I wondered why. I wanted to ask him. But what would it matter? He sees what he wants to see and there was nothing I could do about it. 

I needed to leave. The idea that I had easily betrayed him for someone else was still fresh in the air. I would have been able to fight him on this but I couldn't. Not with the way he looked at me. And I would be honest with myself for the first time in a long while - how he looked at me broke me into so many pieces. 

I wanted to reassure him. But I could I when he had already made up his mind that the baby in me was Ryven's. And the most painful part was him believing Dianne's mother's words over mine. 

"I can't have this argument with you now. I'm hungry. I need to eat," I turned around and walked away from the room. 

I no longer had an appetite. It was lost the moment I met Dianne's mother. And I knew I wouldn't be able to eat when Alexander looked at me with so much hurt reflecting off his eyes. 

I walked to the kitchen with maids giving me weird looks and I knew my conversation with Dianne's mother must spread. She wasn't particularly silent with her words. 

Not paying any heed to them, I dished out some food and ate the little I could. I ate for my baby bi needed strength for her. I smiled when I thought about my baby and I genuinely hoped she was a girl. A girl I couldn't be; strong and happy. I would make sure to provide everything that she needs.  

I finished my food in the huge dining room in the blink of an eye. The good was honestly so good. But I couldn't eat more than three spoons. At least that was something compared to eating nothing. 

Having nothing to do, I walked outside the pack house. It was rare for me to be idle. I still haven't gotten used to the feeling. I needed some of it and a good explanation for Alexander on the reason the baby was his and not Ryven's. 

And while I walked to my favorite spot by the side of the house, I came up blank. More blank than I had ever been my entire life. I couldn't lie to Alexander that I didn't feel a thing for Ryven. 

There had been that one time when I wanted to have sex with him. But one I knew was, if I had sex with him, I wouldn't have done it without protection. It was because I believed Alexander's words plus he was my mate I had let him. 

Hell, I didn't even for once stop to think I might get pregnant for laying with him just once. 

"You seem to be so lost in thought. What's bothering you?" Orion's voice roused me from my thoughts as he came to stand beside me.

"It's nothing," I lied easily while I stared into the forest. The wind was cool against my face. It was the perfect weather for a little picnic except that the person my heart craved a picnic with was probably hating on me for nothing. 

I felt Orion's gaze at the side of my face, "This doesn't look like nothing. Did you talk with Dianne's mother? I saw how hurt you were from the revelation that she killed her son."

I nodded my head, "I was. But now I'm past it," I said and I suddenly remembered what she said about Alexander not being the Alpha anymore. 

"What does she mean by Alexander is on the verge of losing his Alpha position?" Orion turned sharply to me and I turned my head to look up at him. There was a look of shock on his face. 

"She told you that?" When there was no reply from me, he took my silence as a yes and continued, "Alexander's position is being threatened as Alpha because she doesn't have a Luna. He was supposed to mate with Dianne s long time ago but he refused and the members of the court have no choice but to remove him and put someone else."

"And who do they plan on putting?"

He paused as if the words were too heavy for him to utter, "They plan on putting Diane's mother."