I didn't look back. I was afraid that my heart would be softened again if I looked back.
My mother said to me sentimentally, "Jasmine, I know I did something wrong. I'm not a good mother. You can blame me or break off the relationship with me today. I can accept it."
"From now on, we will have nothing to do with each other. I won't bother you any more."
There were some sobs in my mother's voice.
With tears in my eyes, I bit my lips and repeatedly told myself not to be soft-hearted. I must not be soft-hearted. This must be a trick of my mother.
"Jasmine, I won't stop you if you want to leave. But we don't have to end up like this. Let's have a meal together, as the last dinner."
"Don't worry. I won't bother you again after this meal. Even if I die, I won't ask you to collect my body,"
I clenched my fists and hesitated.
My mom walked in front of me from behind and said, "let's go. It's just a meal. You even don't want to have dinner with me?"
My mom was walking slowly with her head down. That look makes me feel a little pitiful somehow.
My heart softened at last, thinking that maybe I could have the most peaceful dinner with my mother.
That was my first time to visit a small and shabby dumpling restaurant.
I remembered clearly that day. My mother ordered two dishes of dumplings, a pot of pickles and a dish of peanuts.
She ordered a small bottle of white wine for herself and a drink for me.
My mother had drunk a few mouthfuls of white wine.
"Jasmine, look at me. I don't blame you for looking down on me. I know that no one respect me now."
"It's true that what I am now is because what I did, but I was younger and more beautiful than you were when I was young."
"But I was too young. I couldn't stand your father's sweet words and married him. At that time, I lived such a happy life with him and had children with him wholeheartedly, but..."
My mom wiped her tears away as she said.
"I'm a woman with two children. What can I do? I'm so sad! I drank and I gambled! Only in this way could I forget the damage your father had brought to me! "
My mother shed tears and said it emotionally.
My mom sobbed and pointed to the tissue on the counter behind her and said, "Get mom some tissue. I need to wipe my tears."
I stood up and took a pile of tissues for my mother.
My mom opened the cap of the drink which I didn't move and put it in front of me. She said, "I know you don't drink. It's better not to drink. Alcohol is not good. Come on, you can drink the juice, drink with me."
Looking at my mom, I poured the juice into my glass and toasted with her.
My mother smiled.
"My dear daughter, don't blame me for being cruel. It was kind of difficult for me to explain to you. If you are able to get some money from the Luo family, your mother will not be so cruel to you."
"If you told me earlier that you were kicked out of the Luo family, I would save money and spend a few more days."
My mom took a sip from her glass, "Yours is a drink. Finish it."
My mother laughed again when she saw that I had finished.
As a matter of fact, women can get away with it as long as they want. Men are not worth it. Why do we keep our integrity for them? Why can they have so many women, but women should obey so many rules. What the fuck! If you want to have fun, you can play with many men and sleep with many men... "
My head started to feel dizzy. I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't help but close them gradually.
"Mom, what did you do to me?"
My mother was not as gentle as she was just now, and all I could remember was her words, "have a sleep, and you'll gradually get over it. You're the one who have been cruel to me, so don't blame me for being unkind to you."
My tears fell instantly. "Mom, I beg you. Don't push me to death..."
After I struggled to say these words, I lost consciousness and knew nothing at all.
I didn't know where I was and how long I had been in a coma.
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