Chapter 71
or the
resignation pape
papers to Kylan
She ripped her heart out when she gave
Katrina hadn’t wanted to. She wanted to work with Rylan, to help Kylan, to know Kylam
The further she fell into him, sank into him, felt for him, the harder it became to step away. Which was the very reason she knew the needed to
only for now.
For now. Hopefully only
Kylan Ross was a beautiful person. He had a wonderful heart, a giving soul, and a smirk that could weaken even the most steel set of knees.
Kylan Ross was a broken man. He had a troubled mind, a soul lorked far away, and a frown that broke her own heart.
She recognized bits of herself in him. In his behavior and in his fear. There were remnants of her own trauma,
na, her own heartache from her mother walking out on her that are at her soul.
However, she had put in the work. She had strived with a therapist for years to get to a place where she felt stable. Where the felt cafe in the walls of her own mind.
It was clear Kylan had never confronted his demons, whatever they all may be. It was obvious he had yet to heal. To be angry be angry Really angry. And not only the surface–level kind of anger everyone knew he carried with him.
What had he been throught What shackled his heart, his spint?
What were the contents of his nightmares! What fueled him to get his cardinal tattoo?
let himself
What made him pull her in, shower her with affection, with love, and with words that made her melt into him? What made him push her away. deny her leave her
She wanted to stick it out with him. To lift him.
But she had tried. Daman, if she hadn’t tried
At the end of it all. if he wasn’t ready to talk about things, if he didn’t want to if he was too broken to. She couldn’t fix him. She couldn’t force him
At that point, she had to worry about herself. Her own mental health. Her own self–respect.
The week she spent in Portland with her dad, had been both liberating and exhausting. She lost track of how many times she cried. How often she wallowed in her sadness. She couldn’t count the number of instances she fought herself not to call Kylan. To lash out at him. To beg him to just talk to her. To work with her. To must her.
It was exhausting. It was necessary
Stepping away from the chaos with Kylan, opening up to her father, and telling him everything helped her see both the situation and herself clearly. She could both have compassion for Kylan and respect for herself. The two could coexist within her heart, but she had to let Kylan go. She had to let him know that she deserved more
⠀⠀ Her father, ever the kind soul that he was really held no animosity for Kylan. Nor after she told him everything. Not after she shared how many
times Kylan had stood up for her. Had helped her. Had opened up to her. Had been vulnerable with her.
It wasn’t so easy. It wasn’t so simple. None of it was black and white.
She was a human being. Kylan was a human being. He was just Broken. Floundering. Drowning in grief he didn’t know what to do with it
k from.
When her father encouraged her to take a step back i Ross Corp, and from Kylan, it wasn’t to spite the man. It was to help him. And to help her.
for
“Katrina, mental health is a challenge. It is still often taboo, my dear girl. You cannot fix someone if they are not ready to take that themselves. You can love them, but even from a distance. From a distance, until and if they decide for themselves that they are worthy of the love they owe to theinselves”
Her father’s wisdom, his guidance it was everything. It was more than she needed to know that she was making the right decision by stepping away from Ross Corp. For now, or forever.
She couldn’t fix Kylan. She couldn’t make hun see reason if the only thing he was really seeing was his darkness, hus uner turmoil, and the shakus that haunted the halls of his mind.
She cared for Kylan. She cared for him more than she ever karwar would. She wanted him to be okay. To be loved.
But she loved herself, too. She cared for herself, too. She had worked hard for herself, you
Letting him go like this was devastating. It was painful. It was awful
Yet she did it. Yet, she would do it.
She would do it because she deserved to acknowledge that her part in trying to peel back the layers that were Kylan Ross was over unless he decided to work on himself.
It was torture, walking into that office, feigning indifference as she watched his face fall before he could correct it. It was horrendous. The whole
She only made it through that day, because Aaron and Maine came over to her house that night. They held her as she cried. They reminded her of her strength and what her mental health was worth.
What she would have done without them holding her together, she didn’t know.
And then it hurt her all the more, because who was holding Kylan together, if not her?
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Day four.
It was day four since submitting her resignation papers to Kylan, and three days before Christmas
She looked down at the tea steeping in the mug on the counter of the break room. She glanced at the small watch adorning her wrist, taking note that she had one more minute left before the tea would be ready to bring to Rylan
It was another gloomy, overcast day and she was burnt out and ready for a break from Ross Corp. From Kylan
His mood perhaps trumped even the grey clouds and the iciness outside. He was rude to everyone lately. Absolutely anyone that he came in contact with. Everyone, that is, apart from her.
with her, he was nearly zombie–like. He was dry. Curt. Robotic. His eyes had never been more hardened, his gaze never more unreadable than it was each time she saw him now.
in attempts to keep her at
She chose to take no personal offense to any of it. She knew by now that it was all a defense mechanism. All a ruse.
a ruse. All in
what he deemed to be a safe distance.
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Why doesn't he goto a psychologist and get better and end happily quicker...
This kylan is the epitome of so fffed up is unbearable to read goes on and on...