Critic novel Chapter 76

It's almost 2 am Jerry isn't home yet. I scared Jerry. I'm laughing inside while eating at the kitchen. I can't sleep probably because of the cigarettes. I will do something else then. I'm not sure if the weed made me horny or I'm naturally like this. I just talk more than ussual and laugh more. Which is a good thing, it made me feel good. And now I'm having a food trip by myself at Jerry's kitchen. After eating I walked up and down the stairs. I swept the floor too. I don't know what is wrong but I want to do something. I have so much energy. After a while I went by the window to get some air. A voice on my head is commanding me to jump. The window is next to the pool. With the moonlight reflecting to the water, it is indeed inviting to jump to that water... I climb up the window opening to see if I won't be scared to jump. But Then I'm not sure if the water is close enough to catch me. It looks close but I can't really say. I will just jump I can make it to the water. I won't die in case i did't make it. Worst case would be broken arm and leg. But I'm confident enough I can manage to get to the water. I climb up and stand straight to the window trying to estimate how much force i need to jump far towards the water. Im on that position when I heard a loud scream. I got distracted so I lost my balance. I tried to jump farther but that scream destroyed everything. I hit my right foot to the gutter. I felt so much pain but I manage to swim out of the pool and investigate the source of screaming. I can hear a noice coming. I immediately asked the maids what happened. Even mommy Rose came to check what is happening.

"Who screamed so loud and why?"I asked from the maids while limping.

"Maam I saw you jump from the window I was so scared I thought you were trying to kill yourself." The maid explained so worried. Her face is pale, shocked of what she witnessed from the window. So mommy Rose came to see if I tried to kill myself.

"I just want to swim. Are you crazy. I will never kill myself. I love my life." I laugh at the maid for thinking I would kill myself. Mommy Rose dismissed them all and she sent me to my room. She's so sweet. She immobilized my foot with a cardboard. It doesn't look bad. It's not broken. It just hurt the sole from hitting the gutter. It doesn't need casting. Mommy Rose didn't leave my side until I had fallen asleep. She slept on my side. What a warm feeling I felt when I learned in the morning that she didn't left my side.

We prepared breakfast while still talking about the incident about last night. The maid said she really thought I'm going to kill myself. I laugh at her again and again while other maid joined me from laughing. We waited for Jerry so he could drive us to the hospital for check up. Jerry finally came by 10 am.