Cruel Destiny novel Chapter 26

Natasha POV

For some seconds, I was surprised and I didn't know what to do.

Should I push him? Or should I kiss him back? These questions were roaming in my head, making me baffled.

I got over that shock when he pulled back. I looked at his face and he seemed.... happy.

His face had much emotion like happiness, contentment, relief, and on the other hand, I had no impression on my face.

I was very confused and I don't know how to talk to him after that awkward moment.

I have never felt that he had that kind of feeling for me. Maybe because I was so lost in my grief that I had ignored his feelings.

"I... " I started to say something but couldn't utter a single word.

"I am sorry, Tasha. I shouldn't have kissed you like that. I know you are hurting and I just, I am sorry." He apologized with a sigh.

He then stared into my eyes and said "I love you, Natasha. I fell for you when I saw you for the first time. You were looking so afraid and confused. I felt an immense need to protect you from everyone."

I bit my lips to stop myself from breaking his heart. I know how it felt when your heart got broken.

And I don't want that for him. He doesn't deserve that pain and he doesn't deserve someone like me.

"It's okay. I know you are scared right now. I will never force you, Tasha. You can take all the time you want. I am here for you." He whispered with a small smile.

I shook my head while trying to stop myself from crying, I said "I am sorry."

A sob left my lips and I continued "I don't have any feeling for you. I always considered you my friend. I am sorry."

I wanted to hate myself when I saw the painful expression on his face. He was looking just like I was. Heartbroken.

"Just give me a chance. I will never let you regret your decision, Tasha. I understand that you are scared, but please don't shut me out." He pleaded

He took a step toward me and stood very close to me and put his hand on my stomach.

Scarlett chose that moment to let her presence known. She kicked softly when she felt his hand on my stomach.

"If it's about Scarlett, then I promise you that I will take care of her too. I am ready to be her father. I will never let her know or feel that she isn't my daughter." He said softly while caressing my belly.

I sobbed hard when I heard his words. He is so sweet but I am not the right one for him.

He doesn't deserve a damaged girl who couldn't even save herself from someone.

He deserves a girl who is pure and not shattered. I am a damaged soul who has no idea what to do next in her life.

And there is Liam too. He had warned me to stay away from him.

I had underestimated him last time and as a result, I got raped. So this time I don't want to mess with him.

Scott doesn't love me. He is just infatuated with me. No one can love me.

I am cursed. Love is not in my destiny. I'm getting used to that fact.

I have a feeling that in the future, my Scarlet will not love me too.

I felt uncomfortable when I thought about that. I don't think I will be able to handle that.

But I won't stop her from living her life and will never stop loving her.

I will be there for her as long as she wants me. After that, I will accept death with open arms.

I can't say yes to him. He deserves better and after meeting the girl, he will forget me.

"I am sorry. I can't love anyone. Scott, I am damaged and cursed. You will never find your happiness with me. I will ruin you. I don't want that. You have been a good friend but now I think we should stop meeting each other." I confessed with a heavy heart.

I took a step back and his hand fell from my stomach making me feel empty.

But it's for his good. He should get a better partner. The one who will love him.

"Scott, I am not one for you. You will find someone who will love you the way you deserve." I let out a sob.

I turned my face to the side, not wanting to see his heartbroken expression.

"You should go. And please don't visit here again." I announced.