Cruel World novel Chapter 56

Chap 55

Sarah

(After 1 month)

Sarah walks slowly to Mr. Grey wing. What did he want to say to her...is he angry that because of her his wife is the mental ward and imprisonment of 10 years....if she got better than? She still shivers with the thought that it was almost one month when Roma attacked her and Ava....she clear her head.

She has to face MR grey one day and now it's the day after Roma was in prison, Sarah felt uncertain how to face Mr grey, although Theo confide her that Mr. grey is not angry with her at all just sad and depressed on his wife action...still she was so scared

She softly knocks the door and enters the room...she saw Mr grey was sitting in the wheelchair and was looking at the window ...he looks like he was in deep thoughts

Sarah coughs to get his attention. Mr grey looked her and smiled 'oh Sarah....come I was waiting for you...join me for a tea' his speech was really improved and so was his health...

But he looks so old and fragile..she wished he get better soon and start walking again

Sarah smiled too and sits down 'how are you dad'

Mr grey close his eyes and look contented 'when you say me, dad, I feel so much happy that at least you don't hate me'

Sarah make a face' and why would I hate you...you should know that i love you...you are my father..how can I'

Mr grey looks down in shame 'because of my family...how they treated you...how you faced so many miserable situations alone because of them and now Roma (his voice broke) what she did with you and Ava totally kill me inside. I'm so numb, I don't even know how to react when I was told my wife is in mental hospital ' he looks so sad that made Sarah emotional to..She hold his hand

'dad...plz don't say that. I love you because you were the only one who treated me as a human who supported me even every person in the city pointed out I killed Tina. Then how can I hate you, you loved my child when her own father neglected her...plz forget about it and we should try to move on'

Mr grey sighs and do not speak for a minute 'I will never forget Theo what he did to you...even I know he is guilty and trying to do everything in his power to make you and Ava happy but still I can't forgive him ....but sometime Sarah, I get angry at myself ...when I see him like that...he look so sad but when he see Ava and loves her made me proud too that this is my son...i always though after you were gone who will take care of Ava because I was not well but then I saw Theo changed behavior how he loved Ava how protective he was it made me relax that she is in save hand...but it makes me so guilty that how can I feel that for theo...he was the one to almost kill you in Miami. I saw him' Mr grey tears were falling

Sarah can understand what he is going through. She go through this dilemma daily....she get confused when she saw the good image of theo now but then that image of theo came of the past that she try to always forget but unfortunately bad theo always win in her mind that over power every good deed that theo did now

Sarah nodes 'but you should not hate him..he is your son too and i know its difficult for me to forgive and forget but please never doubt his love for Ava....cause i saw this so personally that it scare me a lot too and made me realized he is a perfect father for her. So don't feel guilty because i don't feel that too...(Sarah took a deep breath) she change the topic and focus on what ok just forget it now tell me why did you call me is there something important' Mr grey wanted to say

Mr Grey said the words very carefully 'i wanted to know...and its totally depend upon you...what you think about to join our business'

Sarah was stun what he was saying 'business ? me? I don't get it'

Mr. Grey sighs 'Sarah listens to me... what you will decide it will be very important ...but I just want to know your interest in the business... I know you are very intelligent and I may not be working but being an experienced businessman I know who is capable for my business or not. So do you wanna work?'

Sarah gives a confused look. She doesn't even have any experience 'Dad... I don't know.I just have the bookish knowledge, not any practical one...if have any then few internships in my father company before marriage that's all I can count and secondly I don't know if Theo will approve that or not" she hesitantly spoke

Mr grey looks angry 'hell with theo...he don't have any say on this....its still my company...its purely your decision and I really think it will be best for you ..you will get out of this house more you will see how outer world interact and deal..it will be good for you so how you feel like'

Sarah was still uncertain but she like the idea of going out...she wanted to do something productive but never got the confidence to do that ...she always like creative work...what if she start working...start getting her own identity instead of living here in past memories 'Dad I like the idea to be honest but

Mr grey hold Sarah's hands ', no but just yes...so tell me what you are good at'

Sarah shy and said 'are you taking my interview'

Mr. Grey smile 'something like that"

Sarah sighs 'I think I'm good at creative work... I always like marketing concept but since I have no experience I have no idea how I will do it?'

Mr grey raised his hand 'no more doubts.You are going to the office tomorrow'

Sarah was about to argue but there was knock in the door ...it was butler 'sir your lawyer Mr. Hanks is here'

Mr grey nodes 'Ok call him in'

Sarah stand 'I think I should go but dad let me think on this'

Mr Grey replied 'if you wanted to do something just do it don't waste more time on thinking... I know you want to do this, it's in you'

Sarah was touched by this and kissed Mr grey forehead and walk to her wing.

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Sarah was busy in her thoughts that she heard a someone enter; it was Theo holding a bunch of bags. After the kiss encounter, she was little nervous around him although Theo act normal with her like its fine they kiss... she was not....she was more shocked the way she reacted to kiss...how much she enjoys it....she shakes her head

Theo smiled 'Hi Sarah..how are you.... I got some of your stuff and some new dresses too'

Sarah raised an eyebrow in confusion....'you didn't go to the office?'

Theo looks her 'I told you Ava wants some dollhouse that she saw on the internet so I went with her in the morning and got that too pink color doll house' he laughed

Sarah shook her head and Theo saw that 'what...why you made that face' theo asked in interest

Sarah put her book down and said 'nothing...its ... I think giving what she asked immediately will spoil her' she softly made her point

Theo nodes and smile big 'but she was asking me for weeks...so technically it was not immediate and I did nothing for her when I should have so this is nothing' Theo give her a sad smile

Theo shrugs 'ok now...let see the things I got for you ... I hope you like it?' he looked little uncertain

Sarah feels awkward ...Theo did shopping for her....it shocked her....she recall that first shopping experience....she closes her eyes...how she met Mark for the first time how Theo slapped her how Ava was kicked by Roma. She opened her eyes and saw theo concern expression ....he picked her face 'hi whats wrong...you were so pale and tense all of a sudden'

Sarah removes his hand from her face and took a step back 'nothing...I'm fine and you don't have to get something for me. I'm really ok with my clothes'

Theo looked at her in worry but nodes 'I got that for you because I want too and I will get other things for you too if I liked it' he said as a matter of fact

After looking at expensive clothes, handbags and perfume. Sarah was overwhelmed by all these stuff. She was so confused what to say so she just said 'thank you'

Theo smiled and held her hands 'no problem baby... I will buy the world if you say to me' he kissed her hand that made Sarah jerk her hand and replied 'why you keep on touching me... I told you before don't do that'

Theo stands and sighs 'im sorry if you don't like it.... but I love you, Sarah,....so much...and I know even you are my wife I still don't have any right on you...and it's my own fault but I thought we can at least try.. I know you liked when I kissed you

Sarah was embarrassed and angry 'how you know what I like? do you ever try to know me first no...always in your mind was how to hurt me how to isolate me how to make fun of you...so how would you know now what I like... and that night was a mistaken kiss nothing much...you attack me with your mouth...so what can I do at that moment' she huff in irritation

Theo also looked super annoyed and little angry too 'I accept what you said and I'm guilty of your pain.But don't call the night a mistake because I sure as hell I know that kiss was passionate and reciprocated... I don't attack you and you also know that (Sarah looks down) I must have initiated the kiss but you also responded me back... I can feel that and you also ' Theo also huff

Sarah's mouth was open in shocked ...oh god she did enjoy it and he has also felt that ... it's so embarrassing ..he must think what a slut she is..she can feel the tears in her eyes.

Theo walks towards her and wiped her tears 'hey I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said that..I'm so sorry ....please don't cry

Sarah weakly replied 'you must be thinking what a slut I am ... what you used to say an ugly slut?'

Theo flinched...he knows why Sarah said that.....he used to call her that name.Especially on intimate moments.

He shakes his head 'no baby you are not ...you are so pure..So beautiful.like it hurt me ....I'm sorry to call you those names....and you know what I even know at those time that you are not but I still said it just to hurt you... I was always attracted to you Sarah always and that made me more angry at myself but now I feel proud to have a wife like you....I'm sorry to make you feel like that...you are perfect' he kissed her forehead

Sarah sit down and look aimlessly at walls...she still can't believe what Theo had told her....he can't be saying true

Theo sighs 'I wanted to talk something else too and now I upset you...when I will stop doing that' he holds his head in frustration.

Sarah looks at him and replied in curiosity 'whats that'

Theo opened his mouth then close it...he looks away ..'ok I don't know how you will react what it's important...like very important... I have arranged an appointment with the grief and marriage psychologist'

Sarah's eyes were bulging out 'i told you I won't go'