"Okay." Jessie nodded her head.
Violet sat down at the edge of the hospital bed, "I was not in the same situation as you, I didn't know who the father was at first, but you know, and he is the one you love, so your desire to keep this child, I can understand, of course. I'm not advising you to get rid of this child, I just want to tell you, this is not child's play, and once you do make the choice, you are not able to regret it."
"Violet is right." Jessie’s father and mother echoed.
Violet smiled, "This child is destined to not be loved and accepted by its father, so if you want to keep this child, you are destined to be a single mother, you are also destined to become stronger and even have to give up more things for this child. Not all men are able to accept you having a child, and you certainly can't feel at ease when you are with other men with this child, can you?"
Jessie's eyelids drooped.
Violet took her hand, "So you have to more than just give this up, at the same time, you also have to endure a lot of things than ordinary people, like other people's comments, other people's blank stares, just like me. Whether I was pregnant with Calvin and Arya, or if I gave birth to Calvin and Arya, there are always people around me who will ask who their father is, why you gave birth to a child without being married, and they will even be behind your back to saying that you misbehaved and messed around outside before you got pregnant, can you handle that?"
"I can." Jessie clenched her palms and said with certainty, "Violet, you came through the same way, you can bear it, why can't I? And you know my stubbornness, if I'm really going down the wrong path that way, I won't back off, I'll just keep going, that's me."
"I know." Violet nodded, "But you can bear this, can you bear the child's inquiry? In a child's growing up, there is a need for the role of a father, you surely don't want to tell the child who his father is, after all, his father won't accept him, so you surely won't tell him and let him know that he is a child who is not accepted by his father, because you are afraid that the child will be sad."
Jessie bit her lip and didn't speak anymore.
Because Violet was right, having this child, she would indeed not tell this child who his father was.
"So Jessie, children are curious, the more you don't say, the more he just wants to know, just like Calvin, in the past, he had asked me who his father is, I don't even know how to tell him. Seeing his expectation for his father, I feel very bad in my heart, because I can't tell him who his father is, because I don't know, and I can't give him a father, so seeing the child not get an answer, I felt sad."
Violet said as she touched her heart.
Jessie smiled bitterly, "Violet, in fact, I know, because I saw with my own eyes what you went through, so how could I not be clear about what I will go through by keeping this child? But I am confident that I can give the child double love so that he can live without his father, and I am also ready to be judged." Jessie took a deep breath and said.
Violet nodded, "I see, so you're sure you want to keep this child right?"
Jessie lowered her eyes, "Well, I want to stay, at first I was torn, but now I have thought it through, I want to keep it, it is impossible for George and I to be together, but I can keep our child, at least this is my heart for this relationship."
This child was considered her final reward for her bitter love for George for more than ten years.
Thinking about it, Jessie rubbed her belly and smiled, "And my intuition tells me that if I don't keep it, I might regret it for the rest of my life."
"Yeah." Violet patted the back of her hand, "I thought the same thing, I also wanted to abort Calvin and Arya at first, but in the end I didn't, in fact, during the time I chose not to abort, I also wondered whether I was right or wrong to do so, and whether I would regret my choice today in the future. As it turns out, it's the choice to abort in the first place that you'll really regret."
"Look, you're thinking all this, you know at that time, you didn't know whose baby it was, and I knew, so it's even more impossible for me to abort him, I don't want to live with regrets all the time in the future, even though having this baby might be a hard life in the future, but at least, I won't regret it."
Jessie said, looking at her parents, "Dad, mom, please allow me to be capricious one last time, let me keep this baby, okay? For its sake, I'll live well and won't do anything stupid again."
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